🌹𝓕𝓘𝓝𝓓 𝓜𝓔🌹. JJK.

#46

"what", my heart stops.

" i want us to stop being friends". 

i could see it in his eyes that this was over. no more.

"it hurts too much to look at you as a friend when i know i see you more than that", he looks down fiddling around the handle of the cup.

"and I'm not sure if you've noticed this, but i feel like every interaction I've had with you over these past few months have been nothing but painful". his eyebrows scrunch in despair.

"what no-".

"no, I've only always hurt you, always.. the person whom id want to protect with every cell in my body".

"was being hurt by me".

"That's not true". my voice rose up.

"no, luna. Everything wrong that has happened to you seems to always be coming from me".

"and i was ashamed of that, that's why i avoided you which was a stupid approach but that's all i could think of". i look at him unable to protest to any of his reasonings.

"and i don't want that, so it would be better for the both of us if i could just leave out of the picture".

"so , please. don't ask me to stay, because one word from you and ill forget everything I've came here to do". he pleads to me with his eyes.

those eyes.

i look down, it will only further hurt him if i ask him to stick to my selfish decision.

"okay, i understand". i smile sweetly trying to hold back my emotions.

"you...you will make it to the birthday party day after tomorrow, wouldn't you".

i look at him with hope.

"it's okay, you don't have to address me or anything, it would mean the world if you could make it for my brother". i look down.

"yes, ill be there luna", he smiles. the one that holds no meaning. i smile back.

 " thankyou, i guess this is it".

i nod.

i heard the seat shift as he got up to leave.

i rest my head on the table, looking at the clear sky. the weather's beautiful.

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Jungkook POV

i jot down the essential details told by the professor when last night waves through my head. how her soft pink lips meshed into mine as i huddled her warm body close to mine. i still taste her on my lips.

my fingertips rise up to my lips as i lick my lips. fuck, now i want to kiss her. my focus muddles around me as i revise the events slowly one by one.

"earth to jungkook", taehyung called out to me as i quickly fall out of my trance.

"YES , WHAT", i look up startled at him.

"what are you thinking so intently about, I've been calling you for the past 2 min", he looked at me with an irritated look.

"ah sorry", i rub my neck feeling the blush creep up my cheeks, this is the 3rd time this has happened.

"gimme your notes, i can't catch up to what he's saying", tae groans slamming his notebook in his head.

i throw my book towards his desk before sinking into my seat.

i can't seem to focus, what are you doing to me luna.