TommyInnit never cries

Can't forget

Tw:funeral?

      Cursing

Panic attack

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It was Tommy's funeral today and Tubbo had no idea how he got there.

The last couple of days were all a blur. People came to visit, but he couldn't remember what they had said.

He didn't know how he got home the day Tommy died.

He didn't know what happend with Tommy's body after that.

Tubbo didn't know anything. His head was empty, but here he was.

At Tommy's funeral.

Tubbo was sitting on the front row looking at a casket with a body.

Tommy's body.

It was weird how he was already gone.

So early

Tubbo tore his eyes away from the casket and looked around. He had come early so Tubbo could see who would come in. A lot of people came.

Philza and Technoblade were there.

Sam too.

Hell, the whole SMP was there(excluding Dream because he was in prison).

Tubbo just didn't understand why. They had never cared for Tommy, so why now.

Why do they begin to care when it doesn't matter anymore?

When Tommy is death.

Tubbo wanted to cry, but he didn't have any tears left. Crying is the only thing he did the last couple of

days?

weeks?

Tubbo honestly didn't know. Time works differently when you sit in your room and cry all day.

Everyone sat down and the funeral began.

Philza gave his speech first. He said he wanted forgiveness for never being there for Tommy. For being a bad father.

Technoblade came after that. He said something similar.

Then it was Gosthbur's turn. He talked about how good of a friend Tommy was and Tubbo couldn't agree more.

After Ghostbur's speech, Tubbo zoned out.

Thinking

Were they all telling the truth? Did they actually care? Surely not. How? They were never there forTommy. But had Tubbo? Had Tubbo been there for him?

His thoughts got interrupted by Ranboo standing up. It must've been his turn to say his speech.

Ranboo walked to the front and took a deep breath and only because Tubbo knew him well, he could see how nervous he was. He saw it in his eyes.

Ranboo had some papers in his shaky hands. His speech was written on it. Tubbo had read it and thought it was amazing, so it surprised him when Ranboo ripped it in pieces and then threw it away, not sparing it another glance. He took another deep breath and began talking.

"I'm scared."

That was certainly not what Tubbo had been expecting. Then Ranboo continued.

"I'm so scared. Tommy was my first friend here. He welcomed me with open arms even tho it was with crime."