I N N O C E N T T H U G :: Started From the Bottom::

I N N O C E N T T H U G ::Untamed::

        I shake my head and let out a breath. "India, please d-don't give up on me" she says in a soft tone. I smiled "Amiah, i may not know you as much as i'd like to, but i'd never give up on you" I say to her. "T-thank you India, " she says to me. "Well i want to take you too the doctors tomorrow and help you" I say to her, hoping she wasn't going to bomb on me about it. "Alright, i'll do it, whatever helps me.... helps me to get threw this" she says in a ruffled manner..I smile "Alright, first thing tomorrow, i'll come get you and we will go to the doctors" I say hanging up.

        I look around and sigh. This is all too much and nothing is in order. I lay down in my bed and i start to drift off and dream. I didn't think that it would go this far, what is god trying to tell me? Am i doing the right thing? Or am i just wasting time? So many questions, and yet no good answers.

        I turn to my side and i get a a hard hitting sensation in my chest, something like a hammer, pounding and breaking my heart. I feel so terrible about Amiah. What if i'm not able to help her like i want to. I breath again and sit up from my bed, trying to catch my breath. Soon i become dizzy, i begin to panic and I call out for my dad as I fall, face fist to the floor.

"India!" ... I hear a voice, beeping, "Come on baby wake up!". Daddy?,  All i hear is , breathing, a ear piercing ringing in my ear, that disturbs me. I open my eyes to see a white ceiling, and goose bumps on my arm due to the temperature in the room. It's so cold..."India, sweetie?  blink if you can feel this" a sweet voice says as i feel a rub on my leg. I blink, because i can also hear her too. I slowly look seeing my dad, and mom hovering over me. "Oh god is good!" my dad screams out.

"Well, she responded, we are going to do some more tests' on her to make sure she is fine to go home tonight" The nurse says. Wait, what!?, whats wrong with me? Why am I here?! Hearing that , i sat up quickly pulling off the white patches on my chest. "India no!" my dad calls out. I look at him "What happened to me excatlly?" I say in worry "nothing serious honey, you were light headed and you passed out, it will be fine, so please relax" she said as her cold hands tried to pulled me back. I pull away from her in aggressiveness "No! no! I want to go home! now! Daddy take me home" I say , being untamed, and angry. "India please! I will take you home, as soon as they are finished running tests'". I look, i have a grave fear of needles, wraps, cords, anything hospital wise! I hate hospital settings, the fear was getting to my head, next thing I knew, I lashed out. ...... Then.... "India!" my name? again!? I open my eyes again as I don't see my dad, or my mom, But Lloyd. "India? you good ?" he said as he looked at me with worry. I had a gas mask on, and as my eyes drifted to him, and slowly back to the ceiling, a tear ran down my eye, as my heart raced, I was so afraid. "I just want to go home"