I N N O C E N T T H U G :: Started From the Bottom::

::Regrets::

After I told my mom exactly how I felt, I felt different. I looked at my mom and shook my head. "Just because I'm telling you this doesn't make me feel any different about you. I know you love me mom, but I just can't right now... maybe another time we could talk and I wouldn't feel so incomplete" I said to her.

She nodded giving that she understands what I'm trying to say. I sigh out and look at my dad "And I'm sorry dad for being disrespectful, it's just one of those days you know?" I told him. He smiled and patted my back "It's alright baby girl, just got and rest for a minute, me and your mom will be back in an hour to pick you up." he said as he picked his keys up. I nodded and went back to my bed and sat there. Amiah watched them leave as she stayed as well as Lloyd. "Wow, that was intense as fuck!" Amiah shouted. I giggled a little, nothing was really funny, it was just the way she came off about it.

Lloyd laughed as he shook his head. Lloyd looked at me and smiled. "Amiah, you think you could step out for a minute" I asked. "Lloyd and I need to discuss something" I said. Amiah put her hands and smiled "You ain't said nothing but a word" she said as he backed away out the door "I'm gonna go get something to eat" she said.

I smiled as Lloyd and I made eye contact, as the door shut. His smiled disappeared and so did mine. "India... I don't want you going back to that place.." he said in a serious tone. I sat up and looked at him "What do you mean?... Lloyd I--" he cut me off. "I don't care at this point... India if you needed money that bad, why didn't you just tell me? I have a job, I work damn it! you could've been killed, working for Amiah is going to get you in jail, or even worse dead, India you have to understand, I know you wanna be there for her... but the matter of the fact is... Not everything comes through selling yourself and dancing in front of men... you feel me?" he said.

I looked at him. "I know... I was just so sick of hearing me being called a spoiled little rich girl, when first off I'm not even rich, and second I'm not spoiled... I just wanted to prove that, hey I can be just as hood as the next chick.. But apparently that doesn't matter anymore." I said as I laid my head on my pillow. Lloyd laughed "Babygirl, you ain't gotta be hood just for a guy to come your way, what made you think I came your way for? Because of your body? your face? Nah... I came because you attracted me with your presence; alone India you had me hooked and from that moment I swore to always be by your side." he explained to me.

I looked at him, I have never heard that before from any man. The last thing I would ever hear come out of Lloyd's mouth is something like that. I smiled as hard as I could and I gave him a hug. "Trust me, I didn't think you were that type of guy, you know?" I said. Lloyd shook his head "It's not what the man brings to the table; it's how he sets it... you gotta realize that I'm not here for sex or any other thing. I'm here to restore, India I'm 20 years old ... at this point I'm ready to settle, and that just so happens to be with you" he explained again.

I started to cry at this point, I felt like I actually mattered to someone, and I have never felt that way when it came to a man. Lloyd kissed me; a long kiss and we silently looked at each other. Amiah walked back in with hella snacks. "Aye what I miss?!" she asked. I laughed and laid back in my bed. "Nothing girl.. just talking"  I said. Amiah shrugged "So when we leaving ?" she asked.

I looked at her "Uh, don't you got a car or nah?" I asked. Amiah looked "Yeah you right! I do got a car!" she said with enthusiasm. "I'll call you later India!" Amiah said leaving the hospital room.

I laughed and waved her out. Lloyd giggled and looked at me again licking his beautiful pink lips. I smiled to him again and that's when he got up and checked the hallway and shut the door. I didn't know he locked it until after the fact. I sat up and looked at him. "What are you doing?" I asked. He bit his lower lip and slid onto the hospital bed with me. He slid on top of me and started to make out with me. I gave me a warm feeling in my stomach as I kissed him back. My long hair dripped over my shoulder and I lifted my legs up around his waist. He pulled the covers off of me and lifted my legs up. I looked at him a bit scared "Lloyd... not here..." I said.

He shook his head. "No.... here... trust me" he said as he went down on me and started to eat me out. I covered my mouth because the sensation was all too good. I can't remember the last time I have ever felt this way. I let out a soft moan as he started to flick his tounge faster and faster. I huffed and I puffed, I couldn't take it.. I was ready to cum. "I'm about to cum" I said all softly. He giggled and kept going until I did. My legs started to shake and I started to push his head away. He didn't move, he kept going. I started to twitch and I moaned even louder.

He looked up and laughed "Hey shhh, we don't want them thinking you in labor now" he said as he lifted up my gown and sucked on my tities. I watched as he did, and moaned softly. It just felt too good. At that point I knew he was hard, and I already knew what it was leading too. He slowly unbutton his pants and took them down. I saw what I didn't think I was going to see in forever. His Dick was as long as my fore arm. At that point I was hollering in my head.

"Oh my god! Lloyd no!" I said softly. he put his finger to my mouth and hushed me as he took his dick and put it inside of me slowly. As he did we had the best eye contact. His jaw started to drop as he did. I gasped out and held his arms as he leaned over me. "Damn baby...." he said in his sexy toned voice as he kissed me softly. He started going faster and faster, at this point it felt too good for him to stop, so I encouraged him to go faster and faster. I tried so hard not to scream because he had his hand over my mouth. And within 15 minutes he said these three words that I will never forget. "I love you ..... I love you India" he said softly. I looked at him as our skin was touching. "I love you too Lloyd.." I said to him as I kissed him softly.

We went in another 10 minutes and after that we were so close to cumming. He whispered in my ear and asked me."You want to have me kids?". I pushed his chest and became paranoid at this point. I shook my head and told him to stop. "No... No Lloyd stop please" I said in a moaning tone. "Come on India.... please" he said. I told him no again but he continued. At this point I wanted to kick his ass off my body.

It was feeling so good, I forgot what he had asked and I let him... I let him cum inside of me. he held is dick inside of me for 1 minute and let it throb against my vaginal canal. I held his body as we both were breathing in and out. He pulled out and looked at me. He touched my cheek and smiled as he got off the bed and went into the rest room that was in the room. I sat up and held myself. I felt so dirty, I felt so weird and my legs were sore.

I looked at the time, it was 4:45p.m, at any moment my dad would walk through that door just to come pick me up. I looked at myself and just began to cry.. I never thought I'd loose it to him... even though... he is my boyfriend...

My whole mind was filled with regret