Finding Ways to Love

HURT

It was almost half an hour, but tears wont just stop. Burying my head in a pillow I sobbed even harder. I felt betrayed, hurt but it was the feeling of helplessness that was creeping in me which was breaking me apart.

I left the party soon after the dance. I didn't bothered to inform Aaron about it, and I don't think he even cared, not when the reason he took me there was already over. Suddenly everything made sense, Aaron being so nice to me, taking me to the party, agreeing on my condition. Every bloody thing made sense. He knew that Ester would be there.The dance, the kiss, everything was to mock her, show her that he was happy without her. He used me, used me once again for his motive.

Frankly the kiss wasn't the reason I was hurt. Yes I m angry that he touched me without my permission. But what was breaking me was the disgusted look that was there on Ester's face. The hatred that burned in her eyes for me was tearing me from inside. She held me responsible for everything that was happening. She was my bestfriend, we stood by each other for years and now what remained between us was hatred. Did I really deserved that? Why the hell she doesn't realize that I was more helpless than her.

The door suddenly slammed making me jump in my place. Aaron stood there near the door fuming in anger. "Why the hell did you leave without informing", he barked, "I have been searching for you all around."

Anger coursed through my veins at his sight. Clutching my fist into balls, I strided towards him. "Why Aaron?"I questioned folding my arms across my chest, "I thought the reason why you took me there was already fulfilled", I spoke staring deep in his eyes.

He just stared at me for a moment, and if it wasn't for me looking  at him so itently I would have missed the guiltness that spread across his face which was only there for a fraction of minute and soon was replaced by a blank look.

Without saying anything he turned around to leave, but I was not ready to let it go, not this time. Grabbing him by his arm I pulled him, so that he was facing me once again.

"What are you feeling guilty?", I asked in a mocking tone.

Shoving my hand he turned around to leave, but I was fast enough to block his way. "So the the party, the sweet talk, the dance", I paused staring directly into his dark eyes, "The kiss was to mock Ester", I finished.

He took a deep breath as he closed his eyes for moment before opening to stare back at me. I knew he was angry, and was trying his best to control it. "Just move", his voice was cold, and if wasn't for the bouts of adrenaline coursing through me, it would had scared me for a moment.

"You know what, you were successfull in what ever you were trying to do. Yes she was hurt, but more than hurt, I could see her angry, angry on me, I could see the hatred in her eyes for me. She is holding me responsible for ruining her life". I was out of breath when I finished. I didn't realized that I was screaming all this time. Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes fighting to stop the tears that were welling in my eyes. I didn't wanted to cry infront of him.

Opening my eyes I looked back at him staring at me with a blank expression. None of my words effected him. He simply didn't cared that anyone was hurt. He stood there for a few seconds before he began to walk past me again.                  

Grabbing him by his collar I pulled him towards me. Suprise flickered through his eyes which was soon replaced by an angry look. "What the fuc..",he barked but I cut him off before he could finish. "You just don't care a damn, right", I hissed, "You just don't fucking give a damn", I screamed in his face.

Pulling my hands off he shoved me against the wall. "Yes I don't giving a fucking damn, because no one else cared too", he hissed. His breath smelled off alcohol, and I immediately turned my face away from him. "And I dont care if you are hurt or anybody else is. Do you get it?", he screamed before pulling away from me.

I stared at his face, which was fuming with anger. "I can't believe we were friends once", my voice came out as a whisper. Not caring about the tears which were streaming down my face I continued, " But atleast I can be happy for Ester. I am happy that she doesn't have you in her life anymore. You are not worth anything Aaron. You are just a heartless jerk who can go to any limit to prove yourself correct. A loser who cannot taken in a rejection. Who just cannot let go. You cannot love anyone. And you don't deserved to be loved back". I panted when I finished. My throat had gone all dry with the screaming and I didn't realized that I was standing so close to him. A range of emotion swirled through his eyes but if I could point at one paticular emotion than it wss anger.

Grabbing my arms he pinned me against the wall. "What the hell are...", I cried, but was cut off with him leaning in towards me. We were close, too close and the look in his eyes were scaring me. I struggled in his grip which only further tightened. "Let me go", I cried, as I tried pushing him off.

"Yes I m a heartless jerk. And I will show you how", he said as he further leaned in. His lips came to a halt only an inch from mine, before he smashed it on mine. My entire body froze at that moment. It took me few seconds to realize what was happening. With all my strenght I tried pushing him off, but he was too strong for me. I struggled hard, but finally my body gave in. Everything just feel numb. Not even a single sensation passed through my body. I didn't knew for how long he was there, forcing him on me. But finally he let go. I collapsed on the floor, with my head hitting on something hard. I could fell something warm drip down my forehead before everything around me blocked out.

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A/N
Another chapter done. I know I take a lot of time to update but life comes up with something or else.
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