Finding Ways to Love

Sorry

I could hear faint voices buzzing in my ear, but I could not point out at what they were saying. I opened my eyes slightly but immediately closed it shut because of the sharp pain that jolted in my head. Taking deep breaths I waited for it to reduce not realizing when I slipped into sleep.

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The brights rays forced me to open my eyes. This time I had been more carefull but lucky enough except for the slight heaviness there was no pain. I was in my room, lying on my bed with the bedcovers wrapped around me. I didn't knew how I landed up here. Pushing myself up, I sat up, supporting my back against the bed. My hand unknowningly went up to my forehead to feel a bandaid wrapped around it. I looked around my room with my head coming to a sudden halt. I narrowed my eyes at the figure sitting in one corner of the room. It was him.His head was tilted to one side and his eyes closed. He was sleeping. Suddenly every single memory rushed back causing the heaviness in my head to increase ten times in my head. A involuntry cry left my lips as I cluthed on to my head.

"Are you ok?". I knew it was him. His voice was enough to make body fill up with disgust. I didn't cared to look or reply. I just stayed there holding my head in my hands.

"You need to take the medicine", I heard him say again. I choosed to stay quite not because I wanted to but because of the unbearable head pain I was having.

"Here", I saw him extend a strip of tablets but I didnt made any move to take it. "You wil....", he spoke again but this time I cut him off, "Leave".  It was almost a whisper, and I was not sure wheather he heard it or not. He stood there for a while and even if I was not looking I knew his gaze was fixed on me. Pushing the tablet and a glass of water towards me, he turned around and left.

Sighning, I immediately gulped down the medicine. Resting my head against the bedstand I closed my eyes hoping to shut out all the single thoughts rumbling through my mind.

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It was evening, when I decided to step out of my room. It was suprising that Mrs. Allison hadn't come to see me. Not when I was hurt. May be he didn't allow her or anyone else. I wouldn't be suprised if he actually did that.

I haven't eaten anything since yesterday and because of all the medicine my stomach was burning. Hoping to find Mrs. Allison in kitchen, I entered in. But to my disappointment she wasn't there. I turned around to leave but collided with something hard. I almost stumbled but someone gripped my shoulders preventing me from falling. I looked up to see him staring at me with his black blank eyes. Immediately I shoved off his hand from my shoulders as I took a step behind. 

An unnerving silence surrounded us before he finally chose to break it.  "Mrs. Allison is on leave", I heard him speak, "May be for a week or two", he finished.

I felt something dip in my stomach. I was not close to Mrs. Allison, nor we spoke much. But she was the only familiar person around. Without replying I turned around to leave. "You should eat something", his voice made me pause for a moment before I began walking again.

"Wait", I felt him grab my hand. I felt my body froze for a moment before I turned to face him. "You ar..", I could feel my hand contact his cheeck before he could finish his sentence. "Don't ever dare to touch me again", I spat as I shoved of his hand. I didn't realized it till then that I actually slapped him. I stared at him as those eyes stared back at me. I expected him to get furious, scream at me, or even slap me back. But he slowly stepped back, his eyes never leaving me. And if it  weren't for the dead silence that surounded us, I wouldn't have heard the, 'Sorry', that barely came out as a whisper from him.

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A/N

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