Second Chance | Taekook

11th Chapter

Jungkook's POV

It's been two weeks since I last saw Taehyung and I can't even word it out that how much I miss him but again it's not the first time we've been apart. I'm used to it.

I'm broken will be an understatement of what I'm feeling right now.

After these two years of craving to see him once, to be with him and when it seems that the suffering is finally over turned out the real suffering has just started. Seeing my baby with someone else is unbearable.

Ofcourse I too had dated someone and it would be really wrong of me to feel this way when he is taking a step ahead in his life, I can't help but be this way it really kills to even imagine him being with someone else who's not me.

When I used to stalk him and saw him with a guy I thought he has moved on. The pain was really intense I even overworked myself for getting over the pain and thoughts of him but he never once left my head vaccant. I tried every fucking thing to get my head off his thoughts but nothing seems to work, the reason why I had said yes to Yeonjun was Taehyung only. After Yeonjun came the pain slowly faded away but the void was still there, he was still there in mind, in my heart.

Then Yeonjun also left me and I was all alone with Taehyung's thoughts to eat me up alive. When I saw him that day on street I was happy beyond words can explain but then the image of him with that guy came back into my mind. I stopped myself for thinking that we can be together. The reason why I said certain things which made him think that just because my ex left me is the reason why I felt sorry for leaving him was just to make him jealous just to make him feel what I felt then. But then I realized that I made a fucking huge mistake and fucked up my last chance also.

When I got to know that he didn't date anyone and was waiting for me the thought of us being together never once left my head since then. I became more determined to win him back and started dreaming but everything came crashing down when I saw him with Bogum.

He said that he doesn't want me. But all I ever wanted is him. How could I even live now knowing that the person I love doesn't even want to see my face. All these years I've just thought of ways I can be with my baby bear and when it feels like life has given me a second chance, I failed.

I don't want to be a hurdle in his life. If he wants to move on and me being there would stop him in doing so, I won't chase him anymore.

Somewhere I still think he also wants me just being oblivious or is pretending to be.

Our Goodbye kiss (which I hate saying) is still in my head, his lips against mine. I could still feel his lips on my lips, oh how much I miss those heavenly lips against mine.

I've dreamed of us being together every single day, but was too scared to face him and the hyungs. I always ended up being infront of his house then leaving because I didn't have the courage to face either of them.

That day when we met for the first time wasn't a coincidence either.

Yeah, I stalked him. I used to go to his place in order to meet him but never got the courage to face him. That day I was determined that I'll meet him nomatter what. I saw him getting into his car and driving away, I followed him and saw him stopping at our favorite jewellery shop. I intentionally stood at the other corner of the street just to make it seem like a mere coincidence.

Well after Yeonjun broke up with me, I started thinking about the stuffs he said to me.

I am Yeonjun not just a replica of Taehyung, if you cant love me as Yeonjun then it's better if we break up. And yeah Jungkook it'll be better if you accept the fact that you're still not over Taehyung and should try winning his heart again before it'd get too late.