To Sign or Not to Sign (An Emblem3 Fan Fiction)

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Wes closed the door and turned to look at me. "What is going on?" he asked

"Argh, I thought she was coming to help, not make things worse!" Chloe said while tugging her hair.

"Everybody just sit down." I instructed. Drew and Chloe sat on the day bed under my window and Wes and I sat on the bed. "Alright, here's the deal. Ernie will never agree to us being an us if you are signed with the label."

"But I thought she said she covered you?" Drew looked at both Chloe and Keanna.

"Don't worry about us." Chloe said with a smug look on her face.

Wes grabbed my hand, "Should I be worried about us?" The pain in his eyes was too much I looked away trying to hold back tears. He grabbed my chin and turned my head back to face him and a tear ran down my cheek. "Yes." I replied.

"This is wack." Drew cut in.

"Well not for us it isn't, I have already decided, I am quitting my job if he doesn't approve. I can get a job anywhere I want. It isn't so easy for Kee" she grabbed his hand.

"I can't ask you to give up your career." Drew shook his head.

"Hold on, nobody is giving up anything until I hear what is going on!" Wes was becoming impatient.

"Okay, so it's like this. Basically if you two stay together the contract is null and void. Ernie will shred it. Now, because you burnt your bridges with Simon, he probably has already called all the other agencies and ruined your chances, so that leaves you with the only other option of MDC. If you want your music career, Keanna and you are done. That is the bottom line." Chloe explained, "Like I said, I don't care, I will quit. I want to be part of your life Drew and I am going to be if that is what you want. I can get a job anywhere with my degree. Keeanna, she is held back and can only get a good job in the music industry."

"Is that true? Can he do that?" Wes looked at me. I slowly nodded my head. Drew and him looked at each other. "Can you guys please go," Wes instructed Chloe and Drew and with that they both got up and left. "Keanna, look at me." I couldn't the pain that I was feeling right now. There was no way I could look into those eyes. I kept my head facing the opposite direction. "Keanna, please look at me." he said and went to grab my chin again. I sludged down in the bed so he couldn't have access to it.

Finally I said, "Wes, you have to leave. We have to do this professionally, there is no way around it so there is no need of fighting it."

He got up off the bed and walk to the side I was facing. I rolled over so I wouldn't have to look at him. "Damn it Keanna! Stop being stubborn! Don't make me sit on top of you!" he said.

"Just leave Wes, this is hard enough."

"You don't think I know that? I love you! You have no idea how much I love you," I could hear his voice break as he was starting to cry as well. "I know I haven't known you for long, and it seems impossible to love someone this much in such short of time but I do. You don't know how my heart is feeling right now!" he said.  I jumped up to a sitting position and looked at him, is he serious right now? I gave myself to him last night, how can he think I don't know how he is feeling. I opened my mouth to say something. Wes half smiled, "I knew you would react to that." Before I could slouch down again he grabbed me and sat me on his lap. 

"Wes, don't," I said as he tried to kiss me. "Wesley, I said don't." he really wasn't going to give up, "Wesley!" and there it was, he kissed me. "We can't" I whispered as the kiss broke. I looked into his eyes. He smiled and kissed me again, this one was longer and more passionate. "Wes stop please, you are only making this harder." He stopped and then started making his way down my neck. "They. don't. have. to. know. We. can. keep. it. between us." he whispered as he worked his way down my chest pausing after each kiss to speak. I pushed him away.

"No, we can't. There is no way. Please, you are making this harder then it has to be." I watched as so many emotions swarmed across his face. I had just completely broke his heart as well as my own. "You know I love you," I continued, "I wish it could be different but it can't. There is no way."

Tears started to roll down his cheeks. "Keanna, how am I suppose to work with you on a daily basis with all of these feelings I have? You can't expect me to be able to do that! You just can't" he cried. 

"We have to find a way." is all I could say. He grabbed me and hugged me tightly. "I don't want to lose you," he said between sobs. "I know baby, and I wish there was another way but there isn't." I replied while wiping the tears from his eyes. This was killing me. To see him hurt like this. It was the true definition of going through pure hell. The worse of it is I had to be the strong one even though I was feeling the exact same way he was.

"Why can't you just do what Chloe is doing? I can call Simon, he will give you a job, or maybe LA Reid. We can make this work." 

"No, you can't. Simon will have my name drug around that I won't be able to get a job. I will be lucky if I can get a job mopping floors with any agency. You know I don't want this as much as you don't, but until this contract is over, it is how it has to be." I kissed him on the cheek. He looked at me with his eyes now blood shot from crying. "You know," he said, "I can't wait to get my hands on this Ernie character!" 

We sat there holding each other and sobbing until there was a knock on the door. Slowly the door opened. Keaton was in the doorway. "Sorry for interrupting guys but Amber wants me to go for coffee with her. I just came in to let you know where we are going."

"Are you fucking kidding me right now?" the anger in Wes' voice scared me. He placed me on the bed and stormed out. I could hear him yelling at Amber. "You are joking right? You are trying to get Keaton hung up on you now! Are you for real right now? Do you not see the hurt that is happening to Keanna and I? What is wrong with you Amber?"

I heard Amber say, "I know, I know. Please Wesley, don't hate me. It's just, I am an intern. I can still get a job anywhere if this works out with Keaton and I think it can work. Keanna has no choice. You have to understand I am not intentionally trying to hurt you and Keanna."

"This is a dream right?" Wes started to laugh, "This has to be a fucking dream! Someone please pinch me to wake me up. So basically what I am seeing and hearing here is that everyone of you bastards get to be happy while Keanna and I suffer! If it wasn't for Keanna and I, there would be no Drew and Chloe, and there sure as hell wouldn't be an Amber and Keaton if it works out with you two! Please all of you leave! Keanna and I need to talk, since clearly this is the last time we get to be happy well all you selfish bastards get to live your lives the way you want to! What the hell are you all looking at me like that for, I said GET OUT! GET THE HELL OUT! ALL OF YOU!' he yelled. With that I heard scurrying of feet and the door close. Everything went silent. I curled up in a ball and started crying. I heard my bedroom door close. Wes came over and wrapped his arms around me. I started shaking from crying so hard. He began to stroke my hair, "Shh, Keanna, calm down. Shh." I rolled over to face him.

"This isn't fair." I cried.

"I know, nothing about this is fair." he started crying as well. We laid crying in each other arms until the crying was too much and we just closed our eyes and fell asleep.