Reborn

All the mess you've made

You wake up with a bad headache and it's almost 1. You get up from your bed and you feel dizzy so you sit down again. You try to remember what happened yesterday and why did you drink so much and then you realise how silly you were acting. You remember that Bucky kissed you after you told him to. You feel so embarrassed that when you're drunk you do crazy things. You're so confused. Why Bucky would kiss you, you start to think... You have to clear up all the mess you've made but first you have to take a peel to stop the headache. You go to the kichen where you see Nat, Wanda and Steve.
W: Hey goodmorning. I think you took your time.
Y/N: Morning...
N: Why this mood? You didn't have fun at the party?
Y/N: No it's that I have a headache who's killing me and I made a mess yesterday when I was drunk. I don't know why I act so crazy when I am drunk really.
S: It's ok... I think that no one will train today.
W: Well after that hangover...
Y/N: Oh stop I can't... My head... Omg what did I drink... I will take a peel and then go back to sleep. I don't care about the hour.
N: Sure go to rest girl.
Y/N: Bye
You take the peel and now you start to feel a little bit better. You lie down on your bed and sleep. Some hours later there's a knock on the door and you wake up.
Y/N: Come in.
T: Hey kid are you feeling ok?
Y/N: Yeah I'm fine. The peel done a good job.
T: Oh ok. I just wanted to inform you about your next mission but it's fine. It can wait. It's not today or tomorrow so we're going to talk about it later. I'm sorry for waking you up.
Y/N: Nah it's fine I was sleeping for hours. I think I will go for a walk.
T: Ok bye kid.
Tony leaves and you get ready for the walk. You go to the park and walk. This type of exercise always helped you to clear your mind. You don't know what to do. Steve obviously likes you. And you like him too. Loki is a player so you don't count him as someone who has a crush on you and Bucky is... Bucky. You don't know what to think about it. It's all so confusing. You seem to hate eachother and the you kissed. You think that he probably doesn't even remember it so you feel better. You decide to try to avoid him, for some time at least. You go back to the tower and go straight to the bathroom to have a shower. You open the door and see Bucky wearing only a towel around his waist. This is so awkward. You turn around quickly so you don't have to see him
Y/N: Uuum...umm... I'm sorry I should have knocked I didn't know you were here... I... Im... I'm leaving.
B: No it's fine I know you didn't know I was here. We both have to learn to knock the door. You know cause we're sharing a bathroom but it's ok.
Y/N: Oh ok bye.
B: Y/N wait
You turn around to face him. After a bit of silence he talks first.
B: You're staring... ( He smirks )
Y/N: No I'm not. Actually I am leaving (you're embarrassed)
B: No I wanted to talk to you about what happened yesterday...
Y/N: Oh this...uumm... Yeah would you like to talk about later cause you're only wearing a towel now. You know...
B: Ooh yeah ok I will come to your room later. Bye.
He leaves and you have a long shower. You don't usually get so much time but you wanted to avoid Bucky and now all your plan is ruined. Eventually, you go to your room. After some minutes there's a knock on the door. But it's not Bucky. It's Steve.
S: Hey I just wanted to see if you're ok.
Y/N: I'm fine Steve.
S: Oh ok. So do you want go to a date with me... Again? I had a great time the last-
Y/N: Yeah
S: Ok then what about dinner tonight?
Y/N: That sounds great.
S: Ok I will come here and get you at 8
You stare at him and he stares at you. He leans in and kisses you gently.
S: I'm sorry I shouldn't have-
Y/N: No Steve it's ok. I wanted it too
S: Oh ok see you then
Y/N: Bye...
He leaves smiling from ear to ear. You're happy too for your date. It's a way to avoid Bucky after all, although you want so much another date with Steve. You had a great time the last time you went out. You go to inform the girls about what happened with Steve but you don't mention Bucky. You get ready for your date and some minutes before 8 there's a knock on the door. You smile at the thought of Steve and open the door with a wide smile. Your smile fade at the person who is standing in front of you. It's Bucky and he's furious. He comes in your room without warning and you can see that he's about to break something.
Y/N: Yeah come on in why don't you...
B: You really got the nerve to talk? I told you to talk about what happened and instead you go on a date with Steve again?
Y/N: Bucky I don't understand what's your problem on this?
B: My problem is that we have to talk about the kiss.
Y/N: Ok what about the kiss then?
B:  So it meant nothing to you?
Y/N: I was drunk I didn't know what I was doing, you kissed me-
B: And you kissed me back
Y/N: Yeah because I was drunk!
B: Oh ok I see what's going on here. You will try to pretend that it never happened. But guess what: it happened.
Y/N: Bucky what is your problem with the kiss I thought you hated me what has changed?
B: Hated you? You think that I hate you?
His tone softens and he seems heartbroken.

Y/N: Well you acted like that. Why didn't you just open up to me?

B: BECAUSE EVERYONE THAT IS NEAR ME ARE IN TROUBLE. I ONLY CAUSE PROBLEMS TO PEOPLE AND I ONLY KNOW HOW TO HURT THEM. IT WAS EASIER TO PUSH YOU AWAY THAN LET YOU IN...

By the end of his speech you're speechless. Now everything ends up perfect. Everything makes sense now... You go there and hug him. He hugs you back.
B: I don't want to lose you too...
Y/N: You won't.
Then there's a knock on the door and you go away from Bucky.