Reborn

The change

The next days were a blur. You couldn't remember a single thing of what you done or sayed. Your hand had become worse and your mood had changed drastically. When you were back together with Bucky, you felt like there was hope, but now this hope is gone. You weeren't feeling so good today so you stayed on your bed all day. Wanda came on your room in the morning to bring you some breakfast but you didn't feel like eating. It was the right time, you were thinking all day. So when you felt ready, you stood up from the bed and went downstairs where most of the Avengers were at the living room. When they saw you they all stopped talking.

Y/N: I think it's time.

B: You sure doll? We have to get ready first

Y/N: I have to do it now, this thing's going to kill me. I'm going to need your support on this.

B: Of course.

W: Then let's go out now.

You wanted to concetrate so only the three of you went out. When you were outside, you felt kind of better. Wanda positioned right in front of you, a few meters away and Bucky was standing somewhere safe but somewhere you could hear his voice. 

Y/N: Ok let's do this...

You closed your eyes and started retrieving the fresh memory of what the witch did the other day. You tried to concetrate to the anger boiling inside of you. Then you remembered. Things you were trying to suppress all those years. Your anger when someone called you weirdo at school, your anger when you found out about your powers, your anger when you couldn't do something to escape from Hydra, your anger towards your ex who abducted you, your anger you had to brake up with Bucky-

Bucky. That was it. Your relationship with him. The way you had to brake up with him only to find out you couldn't live without him. Bucky's voice echoed through your mind: "I love you doll". And then... Fire. Fire started showing up on your tiny palms. Wanda looked at you and then Bucky like: she activated the witch. But little did she know, that was the easy part.

W: Ok Y/N can you hear me?

Y/N: Yes Wanda

B: Doll are you feeling alright?

Y/N: I'm fine Bucky.

B: Ok now concetrate on the flame.

You tried to concetrate on the flames that were coming out of your hands and the fire got bigger.

B: Think about when Hydra made you a soldier and you didn't even know about it...

Bucky knew he was playing with your trauma but he also knew that was the only thing that could actually help you feel the rage.

You thought about it and you felt the familiar rage burning inside of you ready to explode any time.

B: Concentrate. Try to spread the fire to your body. His voice instantly made that happen. You took a breath, concentrated and the fire start moving slowly all around your body. Around your neck, down your spine and on your chest. Then it moved to your belly, to your legs, to your feet. You were literally all burning like a chicken. You weren't feeling weird but you tried to remain as calm as you were now. If your stress had the upper hand, you'd be ashes by now.

W: Y/N, when the witch will be activated you'll be feel the burning but I know you can fight it.

Y/N:...Ok...

A few moments passed and you felt the fire burning your whole body. The witch, you thought. You heard a voice somewhere inside your head.  You can't fight me. You tried to ignore it and stay calm but you were literally burning. You screamed in pain and Bucky ran to you but Wanda stopped him immediately.
B: What are you doing?
W: You can't help her like this, she has to do it alone.
Y/N: AAAAHHH
Wanda looked over at you. Your skin was burning and from your look Wanda saw a lot of rage. It was the witch. Bucky realised that too and talked to you.
B: Y/N can you hear me?
Y/N: Yes but I'm dying!
B: Just try to feel all the anger! What Hydra did to you, remember! I know you can do this. Feel the rage. Turn all your anger to that witch.
You tried to concentrate but you couldn't. You fell on your knees from the pain. Then a thought crossed your mind. What if anger is the wrong emotion? That was it. You knew what you had to do. Your love for Bucky was bigger from the anger you felt towards Hydra. You thought about all the memories you had with him and slowly, you had the upper hand. You fought with the witch. She was in your head but you just kept thinking of Bucky. Your felt a sharp pain on your head and blood started pouring from your ears from all this tension. You screamed from the pain and then... Everything just stopped. Explosion. Power exploded from the depths of your heart in the air. After that it was just silence. That was all you could hear. Silence. You opened your eyes to find Wanda and Bucky far away from you, safe from the explosion. Everything is fine, you reassured yourself. But something was wrong here... You felt weak and tired. You fell to the ground again and your eyes closed...