I sigh as I finish adding the final colors to my new design. I grab the blue colored pencil and fill in the hair blue. There's no eyes or a face. I just want to capture the outfit rather than the face. I guess The face doesn't really matter does it? Or maybe it just shows no emotion.
I place the colored pencil down and I hold the sketch pad up in front of me. Why do I keep drawing her? Why is she The only girl I see in my drawings.
"God dammit!" I yell and throw the sketch pad across the room. I watch as all my papers fly out of the book and scatter everywhere. I look down at all the papers and cringe.
Her. Her. Her.
"God I hate you" I say and bend down on the ground. I don't hate her. I could never hate her. Does hate even categorize with her? No it doesn't, it never could and it never will.
I feel the tears fall slowly down my cheeks and I gather the drawing in my hand and keep then close to my chest. I hope I didn't ruin any of them. I stand up once again and walk over to my desk. I sit down and lay the papers down. I look through them.
Every curve.
Every jaw line.
Every little detail.
I draw. Even if the hair color is a different length or different color I know that its her. She's so pretty and small and fagil and innocent and beautiful and caring and and.
STOP IT!
You're talking to yourself again.
WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID!
I miss her.
SHE HATES YOU!
I know.
FORGET HER!
I tried.
I tried so hard but I can't. What was I even thinking? If you look up stupid in the dictionary, hell you'd find an exact picture of me.
She's happy
She's living life
Persuing her dreams, god I'm so proud of her. I wish I could tell her. I'm persuing my dreams as well and one day I hope to just sit down and talk to her.
I have this dream where we are sitting down, in what was once our room, and we are laughing and talking about our journey.
THAT WONT HAPPEN STOP!
I know.
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS
Because I love her.
YOU SAID YOU LOVED HIM.
.......I don't love him
YES YOU DO
I Hate Him.
Alrighty guys that was the prologue I hope you liked it and it some what gets you interested and ready for the story!
