Love. What does love mean to me? If you would of asked me years ago I would probably tell you there's no such thing as love. I would say love is just a theory or something.
I never knew what love was and I never thought that I would find it. Love is like, a warm feeling, a happy feeling, a sad feeling and an angry feeling all mixed up in your heart. It drives you crazy. Its a whitle bunch of feelings you be never felt before, trust me.
How could you trust me though? I said I didn't even believe love was a real thing.
Until I met her.
When I walked into that dorm room and saw her, I didn't think anything about falling in love with her, marrying her and wanting to start a lofe amd family with her.
All I thought was, I'm so going to borrow her clothes.
I never thought that I would meet my best friend and fall in love with her. I mean there were some minor set backs. We've came across a lot of haters and people who were agisnt what we had.
Did it stop us a few times? Yes, of course, we were still teenagers though. I know that I would never change the way anything happened. It brought us where we are today it brought us together and brought others together.
Okay maybe some others were brought together in a very intense, emotional, and somewhat violent way, but they're still together, living happily. Some celebrating the love they found for each other again, some starting a family and getting married, some enjoying their teaching job and some falling in love from just being around people like us.
We aren't normal, we never were, I don't think we'll ever be normal, I don't think people will understand the love we have for each other, because sometimes we don't even understand it.
We don't know why we go through what we have to go through everyday, we don't know why people judge, we don't know why a person could ever make someone feel bad for just being in love.
The only reason we wake up is to be with each other, to build together, this about sharing a life with the person you love. Its not easy to share a life. Its not easy to settle, that does not mean its not impossible.
I did it, hell I moved to a whole new country. I love New York, I love how accepting people can be here and I love how free people are here. There's the occasional rude people that you see on t.v. and stuff but I love it here. She loves it here, we love being here together, especially now, we're going to start our own family one day but we also have a part of our family living right across the hall.
Truth be told, in this relationship, I've cried, I've lied, I've done stuff that I never thought I would ever do. I've hurt people, I've gotten hurt, and i've lose people very important to me. I still wouldn't change anything.
I'm in love though.
I love her to the moon and back.
And if you were to ask me about her I could sit down and talk about her for hours. Just her names makes me smile.
Perrie, I will always love you.
- Jade T. Edwards
