His Untold Story

Prologue

"ZAYN! ZAYN MALIK what's wrong?! Did we say something wrong?" Louis shouted to me through the door.

I could not believe it was happening - at least not now. I did everything to move on from the past, but it seemed that the past just wouldn't let go. I am tired, so exhausted. I turned on the radio trying to forget it, but I could hear the lads outside my door.

"Please let us in Zayn," Niall said with his calm voice and the Irish accent. How could I be so selfish and not tell the lads about my past? I couldn't stand hearing them outside my bedroom sounding all worried, but what should I say without sounding completely stupid and lame? I didn't want to look like a loser in front of them.

Harry's Pov

Liam looked concerned at us and said; "Zayn has been in his bedroom since we got back from our tour, which means that something must have happened on our way home from the airport."

I did not want to convince myself, that Liam's theory about Zayn might actually be true. Maybe it was girl trouble - but it couldn't be, cause we all knew he didn't have a girlfriend. I knew Zayn, we all knew Zayn, he never kept anything from us, and now seeing him totally depressed and secretive was a new side of Zayn.

It was clear though that it could not be a breakup thing, but what else could it be?

I looked at Louis, who was curious and started to shout loudly with a carrot in his mouth, which made it a challenge for him to announce his thoughts without choking. But he kept on yelling; "ZAYN!... We will break down the door if you don't open it now, can you hear me?"

Louis might be a little crazy yelling like that, but Zayn was upset and none of us knew how to react.

Zayn's pov

I could not keep it a secret from them anymore it was not fair. They had to know the dark side of me. I starred at the radio that had been playing silently in the background and was about to turn it off when the song Dark Side by Kelly Clarkson started playing. I only caught the words:

Everybody's got a dark side 

Do you love me? 

Can you love mine? 

Nobody's a picture perfect 

But we're worth it 

You know that we're worth it 

Will you love me? 

Even with my dark side?

I had never told anyone about this, but maybe it would help to let someone know? They could help. The lads could help me maybe. In that moment I decided to let the guys - my best friends - know the truth about 'the dark side' of me.

I sighed heavily and moved from the bed that I had been sitting on, sluggishly moving across the room till I reached the door.

"Okay lads... I will tell you the truth," I exclaimed as I cracked the door wide open - letting them in.