𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴~𝓱𝔂𝓾𝓷𝓼𝓮𝓾𝓷𝓰

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"oh my god hes gonna ask if it was me, block him"

"what- no- hyung hes not, theres no way he would think it was you. how would he?" jeongin reassures.

"i dont know! you never know! just say no." seungmin says reaching to jeongin trying to get his phone back. by now both minho and felix had gone back to their shared dorm leaving jeongin to help seungmin.

"no min ill just say sure or something, its probably to meet up remember? then we'll just turn him done, easy." jeongin says pulling his hand further from seungmin. "dont worry hyung im a professional" he comments grinning and quickly typing 'yea what?'

"NO JEONGIN!" now seungmin is pinning jeongin down quickly grabbing his phone hoping to delete the text before hyujin could even read it leaving jeongin laughing mischievously, sadly hyunjin is already typing.

"GAH JEONGIN DAMNIT" seungmin shakes the younger by his shoulders still pinning him down to his bed, jeongin still laughing,

"HYUNG RELAX ITS FIINNEE" jeongin whines trying to shove him off now,
"TRUST ME!!!!" he shouts

Both the boys freeze hearing seungmins phone go off with a notification, seungmin felt as if he was gonna throw him, jeongin didn't understand why this was such a big deal to seungmin, hell seungmin didn't either, if anything the interaction was cute and small, innocent and would be something they would laugh at but now it left seungmin uneasy and frightened, maybe it was because he was so shy with in public he was scared hyunjin would hate him as most people did, thats just something seungmin had gotten used to and stopped caring if others hated him for being so quiet and anxious, he couldn't help it, so he stopped really caring what other thought of him, for the most part.

𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐧.𝐡𝐰𝐱𝐧𝐠:
Alright minnie, question?

𝐩𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐲𝐦𝐢𝐧:
yea what?

𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐧.𝐡𝐰𝐱𝐧𝐠:
Could you send a pic of yourself?
Your face of course.

"AHHH JEONGIN THIS IS EVEN WORSE!" seungmin shouted quickly getting off jeongin with his phone in his hand throwing across the room hitting the wall just above his bed letting it bouce to the floor.

"SEUNGMIN ITS FINNE WE'LL JUST SAY NO!" jeongin yelled sitting up to stand and quickly grabbing seungmins phone off the floor inspecting it seeing it was somehow in perfect shape after the loud thud it had made hitting the wall forsure waking the people on the other side.

"NO BLOCK HIM JE" seungmin yelled, his heart was to his throat and he started hyperventilating, he was terrified. jeongin quickly noticed throwing seungmins phone to his bed and rushing to him.

" hey hey im sorry, breathe min" jeongin said worried sitting beside the older resting his hand on his shoulder gently.

"breathe with my hyung in... out.... in.... out....." jeongin continued repeating himself until seungmin joined.
"there you go hyung, im sorry, youre okay..."

Jeongin was usually the one to help seungmin with his panic attacks, they started in early middle school, at first he didn't know what they were or what to do which made them even more intense so much I'd let to him hurting himself just to calm down.
he never told anyone because he was embarrassed, no one ever talked about them and he could never research about them, sadly one day when seungmin was having a panic attack in his schools bathroom jeongin had come to check on him after he had left in the middle of class asking to go to the bathroom clearly hyperventilating after their teacher asked him to go in front to the board to solve a problem.

He was in a stall quietly crying unable to breathe, his mind spinning unable to focus or even notice jeongin was behind the door frantic worried, somehow he had managed to get the door unlocked and comfort seungmin. it was the first time seungmin had felt understood, jeongin new immediately what to do and say, soon he found out jeongin was the same and since seungmin even felt comfortable to talk about his home life and how much pressure he was under, how the littlest things made him anxious and how terrified he was to be imperfect.

After a few minutes seungmin was breathing at a calm pace, it wasn't as bad as other times, usually he'd hide and cry, frantically shaking unable to breathe or think or even process it had started and I'd last for what felt like hours. he'd usually wont even remember calming down waking up the next day laying with a tear stained face waking up with new bruises or cuts or whatever he had done to himself.

"we can can block him if you want hyung its no big deal-"

"no i-i..." seungmin managed to get put still trying to refocus, a part of him did want to but the other wanted to tell him. he was confused of what he was feeling but he knew he was worried what hyunjin would say or do.

"j-j-just make s-some j-joke..." he asked the younger still feeling his body numb. jeongin gave him a worried look. "are you sure? its okay if you want to block him,"
jeongin asked to have him rethink his answer.

seungmin gave him a sure look, he was still feeling a bit uneasy didn't care at this point, for some reason he felt more confident.

He slowly rose to his feet shaking a bit and slowly walked to his bed grabbing his phone rereading their conversation. hands still shaking he typed a short reply, before sending he reread at at least twice and slowly hit sent

𝐩𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐲𝐦𝐢𝐧:
no
𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵√

////sorry chapters are short im trying to write more each ik it can be annoying and changed the theme sorry if it could have been confusing<3