By The Lake | B.E.

CHAPTER 16

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(TW)

BILLIE

"Billie no one cares just do it." I look down looking back up at my parents tears forming in my eyes.

"Do it billie go on." My dad urges me to to step off. I looked down at the water watching the waves crash into the metal poles. Such a beautiful sight with a harsh outcome.

"M-mom?" My lips quiver, looking for any kind of hope left in me, but she just stands there smirking.

"Jump Cmon." "Do it, no one cares about you." They plead me, coming closer to the ledge beside me.

Except Im on top of it.

"W-what?" I start shaking looking down at them. "We never loved you billie, you're a waste of time so hurry up!"

Before I could say anything back they both push me off the railing of bridge slowly sending me down.

I try yelling and screaming but not a word came out of me. Only voices of everyone i once loved were heard.

"I hate you!"
"Stupid bitch."
"I used you anyways."
"I'm kinda glad she's gone now."
"Finally, I don't have to worry anymore."

Wake up billie. Wake up!

Before I could hit the water I see myself in my room. Different knifes and blades sitting in front of me.

There sat finneas with a smile on his face. "Cmon billie choose a blade, let's see how many cuts in would take before you pass out."

I stare at him confusingly but he just nods. my heart telling me to stop but my body was possessed by my mind.

"Fin?"

"Billie don't be a pussy do it" rolling his eyes at me. My best friend? My brother?

"I'll even count for you hurry up."

I drag the blade across my wrist wincing at the pain. "One." Blood slowly oozed out as I made another cut.

"Two"
"Three"
"Four"

There were cuts all over my arm before I could feel myself get lightheaded.

"Finneas I don't feel good." I put down the bloody blade to only have finneas pick it back up.

"That's all you got?! You couldn't take anymore of it?" He starts gliding the blade across my other arm, moving towards my stomach.

"Stop! Please stop." I cried out but it wouldn't come out.

Wake up!

"Hoe"
"Attention seeker"
"Why would anyone care about her"

I suddenly pass it it but to only wake up to seeing me stand in front of my bathroom mirror, Valincia behind me.

"Did you really think you were that pretty." Huh?

"What are you t-talking about?" Val wouldn't say that, she would never.

"Ugh just look at yourself. Actually never mind the mirror might get traumatized from how ugly you are." She looks at with disgust but slowly turns it into a smirk.

"How does it feel not being loved by anyone, but further more how does it feel not being worthy to even be loved you failure." Silent tears ran down my face, quickly wiping them before she could see.

"Here I got you some pills you really need them. Take one, maybe two, or three." She takes 13 pills out into the hand handing them too me.

"I promise it'll help." She whisper into my ear before backing away from me.