Life sucks. But, that's the point isn't it? Even though it sucks you can still have fun. It doesn't make sense but In my fucked up head it does. Everyone learns from their mistakes eventually, I haven't yet but I will one day. Damn I can't wait for that day. I want all this to be over already. I'm done with all this drama, overthinking, questioning myself, and being rejected all the time. I'm just done. I'm exhausted with all this shit it gives me a headache.
I deal with this differently than others and sometimes that's ok. In my case it's not ok but it's the way I solve my problems and I know how wrong it is. It's really wrong and everyone is telling me to stop. But no, that just encourages me even more. Don't ask me what's wrong that will only make me feel worse about myself. Everyone just needs to shut up and let me think. It makes me feel guilty when people ask me questions about my behavior and it sucks ass. I hate when people do that. I
know it only means they care but this is my life. They don't need to bring themselves into it and try to help me. Just let me do me and get the hell away. I don't need anyone's pitty so just get off me case and go bother someone else. Cause I'm done.
I don't want to come off harsh to some people but I can't help the anger and frustration I feel inside. It's my way of letting everything out. I have been going to sleep earlier lately because the night is when I start overthinking. No one understands the way I think. Until they see my arms... I can't help but feel guilt every time i see my arms. They show my sins and lost trust. It kills me to see my friends faces every time I look down. All I see in their eyes is worried ness and sadness. I caused that. I caused them to be unhappy the way I am. Just in a different way. I hate it when they catch me looking down at my sins and then looking up to have them sitting there with tears in their eyes. Though's are also my sins. Their tears. I can't even explain how sorry I am for making though's tears. I destroy everything in my path, including the only people who care about me the most.
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Broken Heart
Teen FictionThis story is about a girl named Bonnie. She doesn't know how to live life the way it should be. Everyone around her is so happy and she's there putting on her most fake smile and going on with her days. She has come to the point where she is self...
