ziddi dil🖤

Chapter 17

Holaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so busy with my things and i had many emotional break downs meanwhile i needed time to gather myself with the rush of things i had to complete
sorry!! aaj se nahi hoga.
so, coming to the story yaad hain shehnaaz learns about himanshi being pregnant with sidharth's baby and she brokes down completely and begs him to take their intimacy to next level submitting herself for the worst.

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Sidharth deepened the kiss, he was so aggressive clutching her neck sideways while shehnaaz let him do anything and everything, he broke the kiss biting her lower lip till it bled. He was so angry on her what is she even thinking of, speaking so low about herself, why is she behaving like her broken self, didn't she heal with help of him and his love all this months ?

He groaned, glaring her hard for which shehnaaz tried to crawl back frightened but sidharth's weight didn't let her , sidharth was very calm in general gets angry very rarely as he knows who's a bitch and the ways to deal with them perfectly, while shehnaaz was short tempered but when something triggers sidharths anger it knew no bounds to which shehnaaz is scared but never would display many times and gives back to him, but her drunk self showing how much scared she was.

Sidharth roared, what the hell shehnaaz don't you dare speak such fucking shit about someone i love and worship, about yourself, ab kaha gayi tumhari so called Self - Respect, Self - control, Feminism, Bloody consent huh? bol badi badi bathe bolthi ye hain, vo hain, main yesa karungi, vaisa karungi bol ab kya hogaya ? he seether in anger

did you ? kahi ? py .. he stumbled as something hit him from his memory, pyar hua kya? did.. did you fall for me? he asked with mixed emotions, hope lacing his eyes, did she? finally ? uff!

bol, he asked expecting a yes, but she hardly heard those words or did she and choosed to ignore, she started wailing under him nahi chahiye muje ye self - respect, nahi chahiye kuch bhi jo app ko mujse dur kardegi, she cried makeing his heart churn.

am i more important to you than your self respect? for some one whose self respect is everything to them, if they keep you above their self respect, they are in love? aren't they? isn't the way marriages work sometimes loosing the argument to win the person?

yes, she wishpered looking into his eyes, which stole her heart.

he was happy, could that mean she loves him? he couldn't stop grinning but fell into deep thought as why would she utter such words then, oh right himanshi would have told everything and my baby is upset so much, she might be insecure as hell

hey bagwan, ye kya kiya tune mere sath, kaash main himanshi se kabhi mila hi nahi hu dubara aur specially that night, i hope she doesn't know it nahi tho she won't spare me, now i regret every damn thing, kaash i did come home early than himanshi did that day, he breathed in and out to calm himself and looked at shehnaaz who is sheding tears completely.

baby, please listen ithna kaun rotha hain, health karab hojayega, haina?
main sab kuch teek kardunga teek hain, pls soja na kal pakka perfect hojayega, please he said, shehnaaz was absolutely sober right now, and she knows what she is up to and she didn't want to leave his arms when he took her in his arms as usual to sleep. she closed her eyes, acting to sleep, sidharth kissed her hair and slept assuming she slept, she opened her eyes and scanned his face trying to capture his sculptured face into her memories, while shedding silent tears , she understood his unsaid, for once he didn't clear the air ki he didn't sleep with himanshi, and she got her only answer which would make and break their relationship.

may be, he might be in love with her as he claims, but she can never stand cheating, definitely not from her husband, her first love if any such existed and the biggest betrayal  she ever had, she finally lost all the left over and the new born hopes on love forever

she looked at him longingly, she pecked his lips for more than some seconds and regretted it next moment for kissing such a jerk and cheater,but he is your love and this might be the last kiss of them her mind justified her actions. and you can't live without him and would be broken your whole life, her heart added which i already am she reminded to both of them that she is already broken and there is nothing more to be broken.

Why is Love so unfair💁🏼‍♀️, it let's you love someone❤️ , even when you can't love yourself! 💔   

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Shehnaaz is planning to leave sidharth.
what do you think is gonna happen?