My pillow is warm but my sheets are cool when I move my legs my parties over has been for hours but the barn owls outside my window has been scratching all night maybe that's what's keeping me awakeReppin my pillow around my head I tried to make my brain shit up but I won't stop talking it says things about xylia,about the flowers she gave me in the way she held my hand and reminds me that I'm never going to kiss her as soon as she gets Iggy Elijah said The same game was stupid and threw away the bottle I tried to suggest playing again but no one listens I just went back to talking and eating .I open my presents and I have to say I got some pretty cool stuff can we give me a hawk feather which he explained was his and would bring me good luck he gave it to me after everyone left so no one would laugh at him I kissed him on the cheek and Hang the feather over my bed A lady gave me a book about Shakespeare which element I liked but nothing was a good as the flowers from xylia because my broken brother is just as I am she saved him and I love her even more for it I keep seeing the way she smiled when she declared I'm hot I hope Cindy she says I'm hot but maybe she won't I can't tell if she like boys or girls call me boy doesn't everyone but me Like boys?Sometimes I wander as if I am thinking I'm dreaming when I set up and I hear it again and gargling cry come in from outside my window my stomach not up I creep over and park the curtains afraid of when I might see look out into the moon.My mom was hunched over puppies pods on the picnic table her hands are shaking but she's busy with the pod pull back the string drop the peas in a pod thing put the pot on a pile as if it's an instant behavior the same as scratching noise she doesn't know I see her she think she's alone I'm frozen wanting to run from him to find my mama at the same time when we pick up the grass I knew would be beside her even though I couldn't see it behind the pine and takes a swig I am I have a lady like instinct on drinking for a glass even a night when she thinks no one is watchingI'm frozen wanting to run from him to find my mama at the same time when we pick up the grass I knew would be beside her even though I couldn't see it behind the pine and takes a swig I am I have a lady like instinct on drinking for my glass even a night when she thinks no one is watching your mom or something I can't understand then she say loud damn him I know she's talking about my daddy her cool stare up at the moon .and she says it all went on my damn him damn him damn him I want to be angry that she's strong but I only feel sorry for her maybe she never left my daddy always said she did my wasn't him handsome in his football uniform my dick in his eyes sparkle dress song but when I see her tears I can tell that mom I have re-reading her story may love out of necessary Romeo out of Frankenstein stuff she had to lie to somebody she had to lie to her self so Daddy to us because she can't lie to the pea pods There's something home for about P pause is it there I always thought so the way they look so forth so young I can't understand why the pregnant pea pod make mama feel empty and it's a weak still my world goes topsy with my momma been so busy dreaming about xylia and getting ready for my party I forgot all about it my heart bangs it's hard to swallow what happened to the letter I remember shoving it into my pocket but what pocket?Night mama I wish upstairs taking a stance to untag wondering what the letter said no it couldn't have been eating good and I flipped on my bedroom lamp and washed my closet wrestling around in the pockets on my jeans Swearing like daddy each time I came up empty my closet and my dresser I got it and still no letter II wish I had some pea pod to talk to the way my mothers does but I don'tI just help me in my empty pockets amazing God Reppin what's your deal says always listen to a good woman like that will always take care of her husband I'm sure I'm not a good woman but God is my only shot so I take a chance and whisper a prayer. God if you're listening I'm sorry for the mistakes and for
Likening xylia and all that but the thing is I got a find that letter if you could help me I appreciate it I don't know what else to say So I just whispers yours truly tiana Stonebrook.then I bury my head in my hands outside the window our barn cat yells I can't even seven thinking Rapunzel still waiting for her dead kittens
