SECRETS & LIES | VKOOK ✓ [EDITING]

thirty-nine.

''I couldn't risk your life anymore, jeongguk. that's why I never called, I never explained or came. I left you..to be safe.''

taehyung remained to stay quiet when jeongguk finally stopped the car, probably because they were near their hour or either the bad scenario of him just walking away and leaving taehyung in a deep black hole.

jeongguk sat up from his seat and walked over past the front of the car. taehyung's eyes were following hos he was coming to open his door, but not in the gentle way. it was rather a harsh one, caused by a bad mood. very bad mood.

he didn't know what to expect. he couldn't even read jeongguk by his expressions, he was so bald he thought he would be dead meat by now.

but the silent, it was killing him the most.

his wrist was grabbed by jeongguk and both of them started to walk to jeongguk's place. it was far from the town, and mostly far from people. it looked like some kind of a big mansion, a bit to big for someone who lives alone. anyways, that was not the matter. taehyung was not the one to be observing how expensive the mansion was looking by first sight, but to stop and yell.

so he did.

''talk to me!''he pulled away with all force his wrist, but jeongguk grabbed him away and both of them were now inside the mansion. ''jeongguk stop it!''taehyung again said louder, eyes widening from anger.

jeongguk grabbed him by the arms and his body hit the door. ''what do you want me to say, hm?'' jeongguk finally spoke up, bringing disappointment in taehyung's eyes. ''eunsok is dead for me, so what do you want me to say?''

''it is not only about eunsok, goddamit jeongguk!''his voice broke in the end as his lips trembled every time he spoke, ''i-it's about you, fvcking it's always about you.''

''you never gave me the chance to be forgiven, ever. you would say it's already done but it is not that easy for me. it's not!''

jeongguk sighed and he raised taehyung's chin by his index finger, ''I never let you say 'sorry, jeongguk. I really am sorry.' ? because for the past months that is the only thing you've been telling me, taehyung.''

''and you told me you want actions, not sorries.'' this time the younger male, only by months tho, approached by talking slowly and understandable. ''but what you don't understand...it's that it is about you.''

''you are the who never deserved all of this, you are not supposed to be sorry for me or to be helping me, jeongguk.'' the situation between them was getting calmer, and the grip of jeongguk over taehyung's arm was getting lighter. ''if somebody is supposed to be guilty, this is me.''

taehyung reached out with both his hands and connected them over jeongguk's neck and brushed the mullet on his back, ''who am I to just come in your life out of blue and wanting to get you back? wh-who am I to trying to be someone I'm not? you were right...everything I do..everything I am connected to are only dirty games.''

''taehyung-''

''I'm afraid, I can't lie.'' he instead interrupted, ''you have always been the one to be next to me, you've always been the best thing in my life.'' taehyung sadly smiled and rubbed his thumb over jeongguk's earlobe, ''and here I am, always ruining it.''

''you asked me why I never searched for help? I-i guess I've always waited for somebody to save me, to fix something that's not even able to be fixed anymore.''

''so, jeon jeongguk, let me fix everything. let me destroy the things that has always been stopping me from everything, let me destroy my fears and kill eunsok. I want him dead as much as you can't even imagine.'' jeongguk was listening carefully, his expression softening from the bold one, ''but with you, I am capable of everything. and I think I realised it just now, hah..how silly of me to think I can be something without you.''

jeongguk brushed his thumb over taehyung's lips and slowly leaned over to press his lips next to him. but it was not a kiss, formed of need of the touch. it was a kiss, for fixing everything. to believe in trust and love.

as jeongguk was the first one to lean, he was the one to disconect their lips from the kiss. the first thing that left out his mouth was a low and also soft chuckle, ''if there's something I would love to do in this life,'' his hands traveled down to his waist, ''it would be to kill somebody together with you.''

it was such a sweet moment, where taehyung couldn't feel any happier. and the kiss, he was smiling. he was smiling for finally achieving something meaningful after so many years.

he got jeongguk's trust. he got jeon jeongguk to be his, just as before. no...it was even stronger what they have. because together, it would be extremely hard to be broken.

''so..it's a yes? you will help me kill eunsok?''

''darling, you never even had to ask.'' and their bodies were left on free to feel each other's warm breaths, soft touches and comfortable feeling.

no matter who they were, bad or good, sinful or not, they were going to stay next to each other. toxic or real, they didn't care. they couldn't care less how they probably looked from aside. maybe, some people would say those two are not worth it for love, that they are just no match for the other—but this time, they just let the world stay away from this and fvck everything.

"say you love me too...please, just one more time tae, say you love me too." jeongguk says, voice pleading as he caresses taehyung's flushed cheeks, making the beauty turn to him again, heart beating fast while he holds his breath— hoping so goddamn hard that he could hear those words again.

"I love you. I love you with my fvcked up self and in my own fvcked up way. I love you, jeongguk-ah. I wouldn't be here now if I don't." taehyung says, finally allowing his smile back to his face, making Jeongguk, sigh now breathing again, pulling the beauty in his arms for a tight embrace.

"we could get all cuddly again tonight, lover boy but now, we should leave and don't bring your phone, I need to tell you something." jeongguk whispers as he pulls back from the hug, realizing that they have more important things to discuss.

"my phone? why?" taehyung asks.

" I left mine at a safe place where it wouldn't get tracked so I'm good, but you... you can't trust anyone and anything here taehyung —except me. so? do you trust me?" jeongguk asks, again in a low voice that it's barely audible, while taehyung slowly nodded his head, handing him his phone.

"good. now now, get dressed. we, dear taehyung-ssi, are going on a date today." the older male says, in case someone's really listening.

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yeah...so I told you all this is the moment after taehyung told him the truth about eunsok. if you are waay too confused, feel free to ask.

next chapter is the previous one in details and after. 41th chapter will be the the chapter before the end one. there will be also a bonus one, don't worry.

but I can't believe I'm ending secrets and lies by the end of the week :,)

luv you all, see you in next chapter <3