Battle Scars

Ch 11

I close the door and lock it. What did he mean see me tomorrow? I don’t have soccer practice tomorrow so I wont be going out. I think I should get out of the house tomorrow anyways just incase they come here. I walk over to the living room and grab my pizza. I walk to the kitchen and grab the smallest piece out of the box. I place the pizza in the fridge and turn around to see Louis leaning against the wall staring at me. He does not look away when I catch him.

“That is one small piece of pizza Alex” he says not dropping my gaze. “Well that is because I am not hungry Louis.” I say back. Louis looks at my slice of pizza. It is gluten free crust and a small amount of red sauce on top. No cheese and no toppings. It tastes like paper but I don’t care it has barely calories and is not greasy. Louis looks like he does not believe me.

“You were just on a run and hour and a half ago how are you not hungry you only ate a small portion of your salad today. That is all you ate today.” I only noticed that Louis has been slowly inching towards me. “I’m just not hungry Louis.” I say backing up slowly to gain some distance. His next question made me freeze.

“Alex, do you have an eating disorder?” Louis asked in quite gentle way. “NO” I say a little too quickly. “Alex please don’t lie, I heard you puking when we got home today.” Louis was now 4 feet away from me. “I didn't feel well” I say, we still have not breaking eye contact. “And I do eat, I just don't eat that much so no I don’t have a disorder. I have no disorder.”

“Bull shit Al! Please I wanna help you, here have a slice of my Pizza” He says handing me his slice. I push it away. “No Louis I don’t have an eating disorder. My life is really stressful and all of this stress makes me feel like I am going to puke if I eat. Just drop it ok?” I say, my back is on the wall now and Louis is 1 foot away from me. I hear someone walking towards the kitchen so I move away from Louis and sit at the island. Louis still does not seem convinced on what I said. Liam walks in.

“Oh hey umm sorry if I interrupted anything” He said walking to the fridge and grabbing a bottle of soda. “Just thirsty” He turns to walk out.

“Don’t worry Liam nothing was happening just me eating my pizza” I say while taking a big bite. Louis rolls his eyes and scoffs at me. Liam did not seem to notice the tension between us. He just shrugged and walked off.

“Louis please just trust me on this ok? It is the stress, I just lost my best friend, I ran into two people who work for Max today, not to mention I have been running from Max for a long time. I have been disliked by everyone for as long as I can remember. No even my own dad loved me!” shoot I did not mean to say that part out loud. I avert my gaze on him to the ground. “What do you mean he did not love you? Did he hurt you? I bet your mom loved you.” Louis asked. I winced at that name.

Mom.

All anger from his voice was gone now.

 

********************************************* Flash Back

“Higher mama higher!” I squealed. Mom just laughed. “Ok little A, hold on tight!”

“WEEEEEEEE” I giggled. “Slow down mama I wanna go on the slide now!”

“Ok little A, but then we have to home its getting close to dinner time. We don’t want daddy to be mad. Plus your brother and sister should be home soon” she signed.

“Mama?”

“Yes little A?”

“Why are you and dad yelling a lot at eachother? Isn't he your prince charming?”