Battle Scars

Ch 20

“Why did you do it?”

“Why didn’t you eat?”

“Why did stick up for me”

“Why did you save me?”

“Why did you hurt me?”

Jack was silent “I...I… I don’t know Al.”

“Don’t call me Al like everything is ok.” I snapped at him.

“Aww I’m sorry Allie.” he snickered

“No stop that has nothing to do with my name Jack-e-o.” I snickered at him using his childhood name.

“NO don’t bring that back up!”

“Then don’t call me Allie you know how much I hate that name.”

“Fine I will not call you Allie if you don’t call me Jack-e-o”

“Deal”

We were quiet for a few minutes. “Why did you save me Alex?”

“Why did you spare me that day?” I shot back at him. He sighs.

“I could not do it” he confessed. I browed my eyebrows at him.

“I could not bring myself to kill you Alex, or just injure you.” He said, shame very present in his voice. “I know I have done things in the past to you Alex and that you have the evidence to prove it. Alex, Max told me somethings and I don’t approve of them and the plans. I am sick of not being able to go out in the daylight. I’m sick of the dark. I am sick of him wanting this information you have. He has been wanting it to long. I don’t even know what this information is! Why should I fight and support someone for something I know nothing about?”

“It has to do with what my mom use to do and that is all I am telling you.” I tell him looking at my hands. “Do they know?” he asks. I look back at him confused. “What do they” gesturing to Emily and the guys. “What do they know about you Alex?”

“Well they know I use to be in Black blood. Max use to abuse me. Only Liam knows I have a brother but he does not know who it is. I tend to keep it that way two. Only Louis and Liam are the only ones that know I cut still. They all know I can fight pretty well. They know about Hannah and Amber. They don’t know how I got any of my scars. They… they… They don’t know anything about my mom, dad o-or brother. Anything from my past really. They just know it was a troubled one.”

“Alex why don’t you eat?” Jack asks me. I look at him. “I do eat.” I tell him looking back at my hands.

“No you don’t, you did not eat your dinner and when I asked the guys if you always ate that much they just nodded. Alex please.” Jack begs me.

“I DO eat just not a lot. It’s all because of stress Jack. Don’t worry about me. Everyone needs to stop worrying about me and worry about themselves.” I rant to him. He laughs “How can a person with your pass tell be so selfless?”

I smile at this and roll my eyes. “I just tell people I am fine but no one just believes me and just wants to care for me. They wanna help me but I get so many people asking me if I want help it annoys me. I have been caring for myself since I was 5 so I think I am fine.”

We stayed silent for a few minutes. “I miss my brother.” I confessed to him. Jack looked at me like I was crazy. “Al really? After everything he has done to you, you miss him!” he raised his voice but just a little. I shhhed him. “Yes I do he was my brother. I want him back my old brother. I don’t know what happened to him.”