Battle Scars

Ch 21

They stare at me. “I would be more than happy to die for you Alex.” Jack says sitting up on the couch. “I would to.” Liam says “And I am sure the rest of them would to.”

“NO! And that is final I am not worth it!” I say standing up again walking over to the wall again. Jack stands up.

“Alex, you ARE worth it. You might not feel that way but you are. You can fight, lead and you are a good friend because you are selfless! Alex if only one leader could take down Max, that leader would only be you. You know him better than anyone” Jack says finishing his mini speech.

“I know I can take Max down. I just don’t want to bring more people into it. I know I can’t do it alone but if I don’t then if I die he will go after the gang to get the information.” I say.

“Ya bu-”

“NO!” I say turning around “I am done talking about this and my decision is final!” I walk out of the room and towards the kitchen. “Alex!” Liam called but I kept walking. It’s almost 2 am and I feel like I can run 20 miles.

I walk up to the sink. I put my hands on the table the space between them the length of the sink. I let my head hang. I can hear someone come into the kitchen.

“Alex?”

Liam.

I grip the side of the counter. “What.” I spat. I was not in the mood for talking.

“I know you are not in the mood for talking but I just want you to know that we are here for you and we are willing to fight for you.” He says. I let out a little laugh.

“How are you so willing to fight and possibly die for me? We only known eachother for about a month? Plus I have never seen you shoot a gun nor fight so I don’t know how good you are.”

“Alex we know so much about you and know you have been through a lot. I feel like I have known you for years. Like I said earlier you are like a sister to me Al.” he paused. “Tell me Al, and please be honest, are you... ok?”

“I’m fine.” I tell him laughing a little “I absolutely fine.”

“I don’t believe you.” Liam said. “I know you're not fine. If you were fine you would have taken my offer and went to sleep.”

“Look Liam I have too much on my mind to sleep right now plus I don’t sleep.”

“See your not find you have a lot on your mind.” Liam says ignoring the second part of my answer. He has basically cornered me in this conversation. I lift my head and look out the window that is behind the sink.

“Fine, I not ok. I am stressed out of my mind and I am worried that Max will come here in a few days then I will have to move again but I don’t wanna leave this place because I really like it here and being with you guys.” I say. I let out a big breath. It felt good to get that off my chest. I still have my back to Liam. I hear Liam walk over to me. He turns me around and hugs me.

“We’ll stay here. If Max does find us we can get an alarm system if it worries you. Or if you really want to, we can move to a different location and we will come with you.” Liam says.

“No I couldn’t let you do that. One an alarm system is too expensive and you guys moving with me would be to much of a problem for you guys. You found this house and bought it but I don’t want you to sell it so soon after you bought it.” I said. It was kinda muffled because my face was buried in Liam chest.

“Go to bed Al. You need to sleep.” Liam said ignoring my answer once again. I groaned. “I’m not tired Liam, I’m fine. You really need to sleep because back in the living room you were about to pass out.”