Life

9

For the past week Tracey has been staying with KILLA. He took her to get her things when Gerald wasn't home. Finding out that Gerald was the one who beat her at the club wasn't sitting right with him. He knew from the day at the party that Something wasn't right. He didn't wanna just sit by and let Gerald get away with it.

KILLA had been out back smoking his blunt thinking about Li͏f͏e and it's changes on everyone. He wondered where things would go from here. As much as he likes Tracey he didn't wanna over step or Eccles and she not feel the same. Little did he know, she definitely has feelings for him. Over time Gerald had grew on her and she couldn't shake the feelings. 

Their conversations always lasted longer than usual whether it be on the phone or in person. He never pressured her to do things she didn't wanna do. He supported her and gave her advice on different things. They even went outside few times to food spots and arcades. Those times with him really showed how different KILLA is from Gerald. Gerald never supported her or showed interest in the things she wanted to do.

Tracey had come to the back limping her way over to KILLA. When she finally reached him she had to catch her breath and drink some water. After everything that happened that night Tracey couldn't really do much. She had to do her classes from home until she is able to fully walk again. She made her way to killa's lap and laid her head on his chest.

"Why you up and about? You supposed to be laying down and resting."

"I couldn't sleep and relaxing hurts after a while. Plus you werent in the bed and I got lonely." She held onto his waist

"Well you up now so I guess it's cool. You want me to run you a bath?"

"Yes please. With bubbles and hot water."

"You tryna burn yourself. That water gets real hot and I can't even shower like that."

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KILLA a.k.a. ROMAN NIGHT

Me and Tracey were on the couch watching TV. Well the TV was watching us. We were having a conversation about any and everything. Talking with her is honestly a breath of fresh air. I could talk to her for hours and not get bored. The conversation is never dull and it always picks up. She just don't know how bad I wanna kiss her.

Earlier it got a little tense in the room. After Tracey had finished her bath she couldn't get out so I had to help and I damn near took off my clothes. Seeing her naked had me ready to risk it all. She had asked me to dry her off. I had gotten so happy and excited. By the time I got to the puss she was moaning. I don't think it was intentional but it happened. I put a shirt and some shorts on her and carried her back into the room.

We got in the bed and Turned on SVU. This is our favorite show to watch. I could see Tracey struggling to get comfortable so I loved her closer to me and flooded her pillow. I paused the show and started up a conversation.

"How you feeling?"

"KILLA you ask me that every five minutes. I'm still sore and in lots of pain." She laughed

"I know how you feel physically but how are you mentally and emotionally."

"I feel like I've been drained and weakened and I wanna say that I got over him but it seems like I still have love for this man.... I know it's stupid to still love a man who beat me and abused me physically, verbally, emotionally."

"I can't really tell you How to feel about him but you gotta let that love go. You can't keep holding a special place in your heart for a man who didn't give two fucks about putting his hands on you and making you feel like nothing."

"How do I let these feelings go and move on with my life?"

"I honestly wouldn't know how to tell you. You have to figure that out in your own. God puts you in situations for a reason. This was a lesson and notes you have to learn from it. Don't block your blessings holding on to that old thing."

I pulled Tracey closer and kissed her forehead. It lowkey made me mad to hear that she stop loved this clown but I understand that this break up is still fresh. It's gone take some time for her to get over him and hopefully she will move on and realize that there is better out there. Even if it's not me that she gets with. I definitely want it to be me but I won't pressure into that. I'll just take my time with her and see where it goes.

I don't think me making a love is the best option. We can honestly stay friends and that would be cool with me. If it happens that we get closer then it happens. I don't want my feelings to get in the way of her happiness.

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"Put the card back negro. I see you cheating."

"I ain't cheating. You just mad cuz you losing."

"Tracey take your turn and killa put the card back. I ain't even got a turn yet." Cas aggravating ass fussed

"Shut up cas. You skipped all of us in the first round now you upset. Just wait your turn."

We were playing uno and things were getting real serious. I was cheating and trying to play it off. Tracey was catching me with that damn Lazer vision she calls eyes. Cas was getting mad at us for not talking our turns and holding up the game. Everybody else was just laughing and chilling.

"Tray you gone take your turn so cas can shut up."

"Whatever negro but if you keep cheating imma-"

I got her right where I wanted her. I slipped my hand inside her shorts and inserted two fingers in her puss. Shut that ass up real quick. I okay with her and she plays with me. We dont sex but we give each other head so we won't be too deprived. I know it's Aries for friends to do that but her head came on point and her puss be tasting like fruit.

"You'll what?" She bit her lip and I knew it was over