COULD THIS HEART FEEL WITHOUT YOU?

NOTHING IS AS IT WAS BEFORE

The summer was passing, and with it Serkan's strength was fading. The treatment made him a completely different person. He stopped eating due to the nauseas and vomiting. He, that used to spend the mornings working out, no longer had enough energy to get out of bed.

- Let's go for a walk, it'll do you good to clear your head.

- I don't want to Eda, let me sleep please.

Our relationship had become a constant rollercoaster. I had started to depend on Serkan's mood. Nothing was as it used to be, and neither were we.

According to Melo and my aunt, the light that characterised me so much had been disappearing. I knew it. I barely wanted to go outside those four walls. I was consumed by watching the person I loved most sink into a pit from which I couldn't pull him out.

Sometimes, Seyma dropped by to talk to him at home. I used to take advantage of those times to go and do whatever I could out of there. I wasn't comfortable with them, because I felt that they understood each other, and they began to despise me. Serkan didn't have that intention, but indirectly it made me feel bad because I didn't know how the illness was affecting him.

Unexpectedly, I woke up one Friday and found Serkan flipping a pancake. I snuck up behind him and started kissing his torso. Despite his loss of muscle, he was still as attractive as ever.

- Good morning darling - He said, then turned around and kissed me gently on the lips.

- Good morning – I said while a hugged him. – Are you feeling better today? It is unusual seeing you preparing breakfast.

- Yes, I'm feeling good, and I don't plan to waste the day. As soon as we have breakfast, we leave.

- What did you plan?

- Well, you'll see. - He was having fun watching me try to figure it out

I decided to dress up with a mini dress with some blue flowers. I hadn't had the occasion of wearing it for the first time before and I thought it was the right moment. I took the sunglasses, an essential complement in my loved Istanbul.

I walked towards the car and Serkan was leaning against it waiting for my arrival. When he saw me, he brought out his seductive side, taking off his glasses with a look of astonishment and holding out his hand to pull me close to him and whisper in my ear "you look beautiful".