COULD THIS HEART FEEL WITHOUT YOU?

OUR CHILDREN WILL BE LUCKY TO HAVE YOU AS A MOTHER

My head was resting on Serkan's chest. As he caressed my face, my skin was bristling by the minute. Despite the time I spent at his side, my body was not used to the sensations that he created in me. An indescribable feeling that only Serkan could achieve.

I opened my eyes and there he was, looking at me with those beautiful green eyes and a fresh smile as he watched me wake up after falling asleep leaning against him.

Just by looking at each other we knew what the other was thinking. And after a long time, his eyes were happy.

- It seems to me that someone has fallen asleep...

- Listening to your heartbeat calms me, I couldn't help it.

- Do you know what I was thinking about while you're sleeping? That in some years from now we'll bring our children here. We will swim under the waterfall and play with them until nightfall.

- There's nothing I would like more. People say that you who's the right person for that, and from the moment I met you I knew you'd be a perfect father.

- Our children will be lucky to have you as a mother. – He continues to say as he caresses my face. After a minute of silence, he says – Have you looked in the bottom of the basket?

- No, what happens?

- Look and you'll see...

- Serkan, what are you up to? - After lifting a tea towel I find a red envelope with my name handwritten on it.

I was both intrigued and nervous. I carefully opened the envelope. One end of the paper was sticking out, and as I pulled out the contents, my face was puzzled. I put my hand to my mouth, it was what we had always wanted. Our dream was going to come true; we were going to Paris.

- What do you think?

- I cannot believe it! – I hugged him tightly and thanked him endlessly. She looked like a little girl when she was given a toy.

Suddenly I remembered our situation. How could we travel when Serkan was ill? I look at him, my eyes water, and I do my best to keep him from noticing.

- What's wrong? Are you crying?

- No dummy, it's just from joy. I'm really looking forward to it.

- But...

- But what we'll do with your treatment? You can't travel right now Serkan. No matter how much you want to, your strength is not what it was a few months ago.

- Don't worry about it. I have planned everything, so it doesn't coincide with my hospital visits and to give me time to recover after chemo.

- Are you sure? I don't want you to get worse or suffer.

- I've been wanting to go there with you ever since I met you. I want to do it before something else happens to stop me from doing it. I just want to enjoy being with you and see you smile, that's all I want.