Bertholdt: are you absolutely sure Annie never came back?
Zeke: no one here has seen her, her father won't leave his house
Porco: guess we'll finish the war then
Zeke: yes, Annie was a good warrior, let's finish this war to honor her
Bertholdt: .......
*Bertholdt stays silent, he doesn't talk, he can't talk, he walks away*
Porco: hey bert don't walk away yet, at least get information on the enemy first
*He walks and stops at a broken down abandoned house, a small worn out sign, Hoover, he decides to keep walking, a couple distance he sees another house, the one she used to live in, he goes to knock on the door*
Bertholdt: ...hello?...mr.leonhart?
*No answer*
Bertholdt: ....Mr. Leonhart it's ... bertholdt hoover... remember me?
*No answer*
Bertholdt: ...I hoped she would be here, I looked for her, I wish I knew where she was at
*No answer*
Bertholdt: ...it's all my fault, I'm so sorry, I'm so very sorry, I should've done more, but we left her, I left her......you don't have to forgive me but just know, I loved her, I loved your daughter mr.leonhart and I still do, I'll never stop......
*No answer*
Bertholdt: well...I hope to talk to again sometime, and....if you ever need someone to hate, I'll be here, I'm actually quite good at being hated
Mr.Leonhart: ..I don't hate you boy.... thank you for speaking about my daughter.... thank you
*he walks back just to stare for a few minutes before walking into the empty building what use to be his home, into an old room that he use to sleep in, he called it his room once, that was a long time ago, he sees a mirror, when was the last time he actually looked at himself? He can't remember*
Bertholdts pov
you, what's wrong with you? Really what the hell is your problem? Why did you leave? Why didn't you save her? You're a coward, a fucking coward
the mission? You knew she didn't want to do it yet you just stood there, you let her kill and kill some more, you should've taken all her kills for yourself, you wanted to but you're a fucking coward
why were you even her friend? You did nothing deserving of it, she's strong, how come you can't be? You should've done something, anything, but no you just had to be you, you fucking coward
Reiner was right, he was being to nice when he said you were unreliable, you're worse, no one should trust you, you don't deserve anything good,why are you even still alive? You fucking coward
ha this is actually acceptable for you, you have no right to look at her face again, you should be punished every time you think of her, it's not your place, how the hell did you make it this far? How did reiner, ymir, Marcel die before you? You're the weak one not them, they were strong, but you, not you, you fucking coward
are you going to keep trying? Should you? You failed her, this was supposed to be your new mission but you failed a long time ago, your dad lied to you, you're not a good or decent person, you didn't grow to become a fine man,you know what you are I don't need to say it,it's all your fault, I blame you, ...now go and find her you fuckimg coward, dead or alive you need to see her, you need to know
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Porco: she's your reason now? What about Our people, our eldian people, its what you joined for, your father
Bertholdt: ...is dead, reiner...is dead, our people will never stop being hated, i realize now we have nothing to look forward to, we were born to be nothing
Porco: you believe that? We have families
Bertholdt: you do, i dont, i dont have anything else, i dont even have annie, do you just expect me to keep going? Keep being the same weak minded Bertholdt? unwilling to do anything, unable to make my own decisions? Reiner died because i didn't act sooner, if only i didn't wait for his signal, this time will be different, i refuse to wait while annie could be out there somewhere alone
Zeke: listen Bertholdt, i understand but you-
Bertholdt: you dont, neither of you do, the only one who did was reiner and he's dead
Zeke: hoover, stand at attention!
Bertholdt: ....sorry zeke, im going, im going back out to look for her soon, ill be at home resting if you need me
*Bertholdt turns walking back to his house*
Zeke: we have a meeting later, i want my colossal there
Bertholdt: ... meeting for what?
Zeke: we're still at war, remember
Bertholdt: ....fine
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Looking To You
Fantasy*First not my images, don't credit me, only small edits and story* bertholdt made it home, without annie, without reiner, he's seen his brother die before his eyes but he doesn't know where annie is, his new mission is to find her
