Two Captains | Levi Ackerman ff

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Nighttime
[Word count : 1133]

Levi Ackermans POV

The night was somewhat too melancholic, I always found the stars comforting as they were something bright in a sea of nothingness out there in space, but I couldn't help but feel like space was consuming me currently, my whole being felt like it was being sucked into the black hole that my heart used to be.

The sleeping person in my arms right now gave me something to fill that hole inside of me. They gave me their heart, gift wrapped with a brightly coloured bow on top to match their eccentric personality. I couldn't help but let go of the reigns every now and then, even if the horse continued to go in a different direction, or sped up at me letting go of control, their comfort was all I cared about taking. Stripping their body of the warmth their heart put out for me and taking it into my own even if the hole had re-opened they wouldn't mind.

In the distance I saw wall Maria. My heart seeming to sink further into that deep dark hole inside of me which decided to settle in my stomach, any comfort that was fed to me was dissolved into nothingness. I was losing my reason to smile by the second as the horse gained speed and ran closer to the wall.

I took the reigns and slowed the horse down. Does it really have to end so soon? I shook my head and lead the horse inside the walls. What am I saying, of course it had to end eventually, the only place you can go when you reach the bottom, is up. The same goes for when you reach the top, the happiest short part of my life spent here, 5 days with my rival alone. Everything had to come to an end eventually. Death is inevitable, and so was the end.

Their body shifted in my arms and I closed my eyes for a few seconds, hoping they would wake to spend the last few hours with them, but I also hoped they would rest to make up for the few days I even dared to let them stay outside of that tiny tent.

I approached wall rose. People standing on the walls awaiting our arrival. I turned right, out of instinct my body wanted to pull away, I didn't want to return home. So I rode off course, heading over to a different part of the wall that people weren't guarding at all.

"Where are you taking us?" Their gentle voice asked suddenly, I had no idea they were awake so it shocked me that they caught me in action of doing something I never thought I'd do. "It's not morning yet. We still have a whole few hours to-"
"To spend alone.. here should be fine, we'll be able to see the sunrise." Their gentle hands took the reigns and turned the horse, slowing it down so that we could step off of it.

I stepped off first, then I helped them down, grabbing their waist gently and lifting them close to me, making sure our body's were close when they were able to stand, hoping they would choose not to move and would hold me as close as I wanted to hold them.

Their (eye/colour) eyes meeting my dull grey, it gave me a sensation in my chest every single time it happened, even before the trip, but I always ignored it as if I was jealous or angry, I guess I am angry, that this is the end.

They took my hand and sat me down. Staring upwards towards the sky. "We're home huh?" They started, "how do you feel about it?"
"I could never be dreading anything more." I stated honestly, "I bet that was the exact same thought you had when you found out about this trip." I looked at them sincerely and nodded, "things change.. but you still stayed.." I stated, recognising those words from somewhere and they chuckled closing their eyes moving closer to me to feel my touch, and I welcomed them to my shoulder, their head leaning on it was comforting in many words people could never understand. I was so touch deprived..
I needed this. Just for a moment.

I stood once again, offering them a hand to which they gladly accepted it, their fingertips touching my palm as I helped them up made me appreciate them so much more than I ever had. I danced with them. Their hands on my shoulders and mine gripping their waist, which I loved, swaying in the moonlight as the sky started changing colours.

"Everything stays right where you left it, everything stays-" I started to sing their song, the one they shared with me the other night, it was on loop in my mind, their calm voice, so confidently singing me a song that meant so much to them, "-but it still changes." They joined in on the song, "ever so slightly, daily and nightly, in little ways when everything stays.." silence followed for a short awkward second until they started conversation again, "you remembered it?"
"I can't forget it."

I kissed them gently pulling them close to my chest so I could feel them close to me, the sky was turning amber, then bright orange and hues of red following too, then purples.. and finally a bright blue; and never once did I let go of them. They were mine, for a short amount of time left I could claim them as my own, as my person that I could trust with all of me, the one person I could tell about everything I had been through, the one person that actually gave me a reason to smile.. they were mine.
Until the end of course..

"We should go-" I couldn't let them finish their sentence, I had to keep them, just for a few more minutes, "I don't want to." I stated, "I can say it now. I was always afraid to before but. I don't want to leave, I want to stay out here.. with you." I blurted out confidently with all of my chest, with all the happiness I had left. They smiled, hesitating to agree but I knew they wanted to, I knew they felt the same they just didn't know how to say it either.

"HEY! ITS THEIR HORSE!! THEYRE OUT THERE SOMEWHERE! THEY MADE IT HOME!" Someone yelled from the wall a while away, they sighted our horse which was next to us, we had no choice but to return home now.

"I guess now we have no choice." They closed their eyes with dread. "Fuck you." I said to them playfully and they returned it, "fuck you too."