Therapy ~ regulus black x reader

chapter 9

"please regulus. Please dont do this." you begged him, holding him tight.

He ran his hand through his hair, "this is the only way yn. We could save so many people."

you cried into his shoulder, you knew there was a great chance he wouldnt come back, "reggie, there are other people that could do that, y-you have me to care for. What will i do if you dont come back?" you could feel his tears on your shoulder, "i left my inheritance for you. All of it."

"i dont want that reg, i want you."

"shh, i know love." the two of you laid for hours, skipping your classes for the day.

You tried, you tried so hard to stay awake, but the universe was against you.

As you laid asleep in reggies arms he admired you, kissing you one last time he replaced himself with a pillow and placed a goodbye card on his nightstand.

As you woke up a few hours later, three maybe four, you realised you had fallen asleep. Starting to feel the tears escape your eyes you stood up from his bead and checked the bathroom, once you realised he had left, you broke down.

Pulling on some of his sweats and sweater you ran to find the first teacher you could find.

That trned out to be hareder than it sounded, you could barey see from the tears in your eyes, it was difficult to breathe, you were hyperventilating.

Your sobs filled the empty corridors, and you couldnt go any further. You fell to the floor, feeling like everything was falling apart, when in reality the world was still going on as if nothing had happened.

You felt someone grab you shoulders, asking if you were okay, but you couldnt answer them. Through your blurry eyes you saw longish black hair that ressembled reggies so well, "please, y-you, oh my god" you couldnt finish a sentence, breaking into another fit of tears and sobs.

Eventually your throat dried up, and you could taste blood, all the yelling and sobbing had caused it. You were still in the arms of someone. Your sobs and cries stopped but your tears didnt. They kept running doen your cheeks and onto you husbands sweater.

The boy felt relieved you had stopped crying but when he looked at you worry flushed over him again.

You looked past him, as if he werent there, your eyes red and slightly swollen.

"Yn? Yn? Can you hear me? Remus, shes not responding" sirius said with worry, pulling remus over to see his brothers wife.

The marauders had been planning a prank on the slytherins when they heard cries and sobs. Looking at the map they saw your name and decided to see if you were okay. Once they saw you hyperventilating on the floor, sirius and remus rushed over to you telling james and peter to go get dumbledore.

"Whats wrong with her?" sirius asked dumbledore. You were sat on one of the beds in the hospital wing. Still in your trance. You werent crying, or talking, you were jst sitting. You hadnt eaten either.

"Im not sure. Im guessing it has something to do with regulus." sirius' worry only increased, "regulus?"

"yes, he isnt anywhere on the school grounds."

"isnt he a death eater? Couldnt he be with them?" sirius asked.

The older man shook his head, "regulus was a death eater, but he wasnt bad like the rest of them. He was going to destroy a horcrux, i told him it was too powerful, that i wouldnt be able to help him. By the looks of it, it didnt stop him. But we wont be sure until mrs black leaves her trance."

you were stuck in your head, playing non-existant moments in your head.

You smiled as you saw regulus chase your son, your son laughing at the wild noises regulus was making. Than you heard it again, the voice, 'yn. Yn please. I need to know where regulus is. Please.' where regulus was? You thought. Turning around regulus and your son were gone. Dark clouds filled the sky and everything got gloomy. "Regulus?!" you called out, nothing.

You blinked, and when your eyes opened you were in the hospital wings. Looking to the side you saw sirius with his head buried in his hands, "sirius?" his head shot up, "your awake, i mean conscious?"

then it all came back again. The goodbye, the crying, the memories. "I need to know where regulus is." he said carefully. "Reggies gone. Hes not coming back for a long time, ill see him someday though." you couldnt say it, you couldnt say he was dead.

"gone? Will he be back? Where did he go?"

you shook your head, "hes gone, sirius. Hes gone!" you yelled at him feeling the tears again.

Sirius was shocked, he couldnt believe what you had said. "Hes dead?" you looked up at him, "dead? My reggies dead. Hes dead." you muttered, clutching the pillow and crying nito it.

Sirius left without another word. You looked around and didnt see madam pomfrey, you stood up and started walking as fast as you could towards the slytherin dorms, towards reggies room.