First Love (Kang Hyewon ff)

#05

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I had the days I loved you heartbreakingly

Your P.O.V.

March 6, 2019

"Hey Y/n, can you do me a favor?" Yena asked me while we were eating.

"Sure. What is it?" I replied.

"Hyewon said she had somewhere to go, but she forgot her lunch here." as soon as I heard her name, I stopped munching my food.

"I can't give it to her because me and Yuri needs to go somewhere too. So will you please find her and give this?" she handed me a small bag, but before I can take it I gave Yuri a suspicious look.

"You told me you weren't busy today?" I questioned her.

"Well... We had uh, sudden plans.. Yeah." she answered.

I exchanged looks with the both of them while they avoided meeting my eyes. Very sus.

"Looks like you two know something." I mumbled.

Yena gave me a huge grin while Yuri just cleared her throat.

"Just go, she might be getting hungry." she nudged me.

"Are you two pushing me with her right now?" I pointed at them while giving them glares.

"Don't you like it?" Yena smiled teasingly.

"Yuri, I told you--"

"What?! You've been crushing on her for more than three years now and you haven't even made a move yet." she explained while I groaned.

"We're just helping you." she added.

"Fine. But Yena if you ever tell Hyewon about this, you're dead meat." I threatened her as she shook her head continuously.

I grumpily walked out of the cafeteria and roamed the halls to find her.

"Ugh, they didn't even tell me where she was..." I muttered to myself.

I went out of the building and searched the other places as well, heck I think I even covered the whole campus.

I was getting tired so I decided to stop by an empty room for a bit. But just as I was about to enter, I heard voices.

"What do you want?" it was a girl. It was familiar, but the way she spoke was very cold that I didn't recognize it.

"Hyewon, I just need to say something." this time, it was a boy. My eyes widened when my suspicions were right.

"Is it that important that you had to take me somewhere quiet?" she asked.

I got intimidated by the way she sounded. It was the opposite of what she was whenever we would hang out.

"Yes. Hyewon, we've been close ever since first year. And, there's this feeling I get whenever I'm with you. It's not just something, because I know you feel it too." I creased my eyebrows as I analyzed the words he spoke.

Was he confessing?

"I have liked you since the moment I saw you. This may sound corny, but everytime we talked, everytime you looked into my eyes, it felt like the world stopped turning. It was just me and you."

I couldn't help but feel upset while hearing those words. I know I wasn't in the right place to feel this way, but it's just how I felt.

"Hyewon, I like you. And I hope that you feel the same."

I flinched a bit which caused a noise, so before they can find out that I was there, I escaped immediately. I ran out the building and headed to the place where I always stayed.

To be honest, I felt jealous. Because he had the guts to confess his feelings to the person he liked, unlike me who's a coward. But also because it was Hyewon. He mentioned how they were close and it made me think that maybe, or what if, Hyewon felt the same?

Just thinking about the possibility that she might have accepted his feelings was too much for me. I suddenly felt hopeless and small.

As soon as I entered the library, I grabbed a random book and sat down at one of the empty tables. It was only then that I noticed the bag that was supposed to be Hyewon's lunch.

Shit.

I gulped at the thought of Yena and Yuri knowing that I didn't give Hyewon her lunch, and the fact that she was probably starving right now.

What do I do, what do I do???

I grabbed my cellphone and thought of an excuse to text to Yena about the bag.

Yena, I'm sorry I couldn't give Hyewon her lunch. I really couldn't find her anywhere. The bag is still with me so can I just give it to you later?

After sending the message, I exhaled and slumped in my seat. I could've just told Yena that I would give it to Hyewon later, but I can't face her after what I heard a while ago.

The doors of the library slammed open and it revealed the person I was most dreading to see. Speak of the devil.

Before I can mentally curse at myself, she looked at my direction so I panicked and instantly grabbed the book then pretended to keep myself busy by reading.

Wtf?! Of all books I could've got, I snitched a chinese book?! I can't even understand a single word!

"Oh, you can speak mandarin?" I almost jumped at my seat when I heard her voice.

When I looked up, Hyewon was already in front of me. My heart skipped a beat when she smiled down at me as she took the seat in front.

"Oh, uh, a bit?" I lied.

What was she even doing here?! Did she find out I was sneaking on them so she followed me to know my intentions?

"Can you teach me then?" she said after giggling.

God, now is not the time to be so charming, Hyewon.

I tried to look away from her and thought of something to excuse. So I changed the topic instead.

"Well, I'm sure that's not why you were here." I uttered.

This time it was her who avoided my gaze. Her eyes wandered around until it landed on the bag placed at the table.

"Right, isn't that mine?" she pointed at her lunch.

I widened my eyes as realization hit me.

"Oh, right. How did you know it was here though?" I asked while handing her the lunch bag.

"Uh, Yena texted me." she replied.

I nodded as she started unpacking to eat. It was awkward since I had to keep reading this book that I didn't even understand, but what worsened it was the feeling inside me.

The words she received from the boy a while ago kept replaying in my head. It made me wonder, how would she react if I was the one who confessed?