First Love (Kang Hyewon ff)

#03

봄눈이 오듯 그렇게 나는 기다려

Like the snow in the spring, I'm waiting for you

Your P.O.V.

December 20, 2017

I stood outside the coffee shop in my thick brown coat, slipping my hands inside my pocket to keep them warm.

It had been more than a year since I first experienced to fall in love. And I have known and stared at her from afar, for more than a year too.

There would be chances when I can steal some moments with her since she was Yena's friend, but it would always be just 'hello's and 'how are you's. I was too cowardly to strike a proper conversation with her.

Yuri would scold me everytime I wasted my chances, but I didn't care. Although I wanted to experience how it feels like to be with her, alone, I appreciated simply admiring her from my place.

But just a month ago, I had a thought.

'What if I tried?'

I thought of different ways to approach her. And it didn't work. Either she was busy, or she was already talking to someone else, or Yuri would suddenly grab me and take me shopping for her date with Yena.

I didn't mind though. It was just a lame excuse for me to avoid embarrassing myself and stutter in front of her.

This would be my last resort. I wrote her a letter, telling her to come meet me in this coffee shop today. I didn't write my name down and just left it on her locker, so she wouldn't know who I was.

But now, I'm finally revealing myself. I'm gonna try and get to know her, or maybe just start being friends, you know.

I was very nervous. I spent hours trying to choose an outfit, and I didn't tell Yuri what I was planning. She would just tease me nonstop and force me to confess my feelings.

I didn't want that. I wanted to take it slow, knowing each other, being friends for a while. And when I'm finally sure of what I feel, that's the time that I'll confess.

I checked the time at my watch, seeing that it was already getting darker around.

I'm sure I wrote down 3PM at the letter....

I thought that maybe my watch wasn't moving again, so I checked my phone but it showed the same time, 5:00 PM.

I looked around, I searched for her inside the café but I didn't see any signs of her.

'Maybe she's just taking her time.' I thought, so I stood there for the next few hours. Patiently waiting.

January 15, 2018

I shouldn't have stood in front of that coffee shop, freezing in the cold for hours. Or maybe, I shouldn't have written that letter in the first place.

This sucks.

"Y/n, are you fine?" Yuri asked me.

We were at the cafeteria, eating lunch with Yena and Hyewon. She was sitting across from me and no matter how many times I glanced at her, she wouldn't spare me one.

Not until Yuri asked me a question.

"Yeah." I nonchalantly answered.

Then we resumed eating. Hyewon and Yena were talking about something and Yuri took this opportunity to talk to me.

"What's wrong? Did something happen?" she whispered.

I shook my head and looked at Hyewon's direction for a second.

"Is it about your crush?" she teased.

I slapped her arm a little and signaled her to keep it quiet.

"What? I didn't mention a name." she laughed, keeping her voice low.

"Still." I growled.

"So it is about her. What happened? Did she reject you already?" she interrogated.

"No, I haven't even confessed yet." I replied.

"You can be rejected without even confessing..." she claimed.

She has a point. Wait.... Was I rejected without confessing???

I looked back at Hyewon again. She was laughing at what Yena was saying and I didn't feel the same way I felt whenever she smiled. I felt more..... upset?

I mean, I'm pretty sure she read that letter I sent. Even if she didn't know who it was from, she would still be curious and go, right?

Or maybe, she's jut not interested in love right now.

Whatever the reason, I still feel kinda disappointed. It was my last chance of approaching her.

I guess I'll just rely on fate then.