Poppy/H.S

Chapter 18

I've welcomed the new month, October, with a satisfied smile on my face. I helped my client win her case two weeks ago. Sandra, my former client, is now happily divorced and has the full custody of her beloved children. Since I've notified the court about her husband's cruel plans to take their children to Germany without my client's permission, the judge was very strict about him only seeing their children once a month in my client's presence after the divorce.

I haven't taken off the necklace with justice scales ever since Harry gifted it to me as a thank you for babysitting Poppy, and it has made me believe that it wasn't only my skills in law, but also the necklace that helped me argue the case in court. The necklace has truly become my lucky charm.

The days I've spent in Poppy and Harry's presence continue to live in my mind rent-free, reminding me of the time we played Twister together and all the meals we've shared. I haven't heard from them in a little over three weeks. To be frank, I've been missing the little girl so much, but what surprised me is the fact I've found myself longing Harry's presence, too. I've grown to love his jokes, even the ones Poppy would find way too silly.

He's the kind of person whose energy radiates through the room, being the centre of everyone's attention, but not because of the fact he's famous, but because of his strong personality. He's incredibly polite, and makes you think that every word, which falls from your lips, matters. He always listens closely to what you have to say, and I couldn't help but get mesmerised by his presence. His eyes, glowing with emeralds, would look deep into my own during our conversations, and now, I can see his eyes everywhere I look. The distant memory of him stuck in my mind since the last time I saw him and Poppy.

I've been debating whether to call him or not, but then I remembered, I would probably only annoy him. He has his own personal life, after all.

Who was I to think they'd miss me too?

I've only seen them a few times, there's no reason for them to miss me. It's me who always get attached to people easily, I've always been this way whether it came to romantic relationships or friendships. I've always been the one who put her heart into relationships, going all in only to get hurt.

I've always been the one to apologise first, even though I wasn't the one to blame. It's always been me organising the get togethers, and yet only now I've come to realise that most of my relationships were one-sided. It's the moment when you stop texting first when you realise the other person doesn't care about you.

In a relationship, there's always this one person who cares more about the other than they should, and the thought of their feelings not being shared suffocates them sooner or later. The sooner you realise these people are not worth your time, the better. This is why I've decided to focus on work entirely, hence why I haven't dated in a very long time.

Friendships are quick to become toxic, too. It takes a long time to realise if you're in one, but if you do, you should set your priorities and focus on yourself instead. It's the moment when your friend sends you twenty voice messages, talking about their day, their problems, their feelings, but in neither of those twenty voice messages they ask about your day. When you try to change the subject to point out you have your own life, too, the toxicity shows when your friend calls you selfish, and blames you for not being there for them. Being a good person doesn't get you loved, it gets you used.

I don't want to irritate Harry by calling him, I'm sure he has other things to worry about. He's a singer, after all. He needs to write and record songs, on top of preforming them. What is more, he also has a family. Being a single dad is not easy, especially with the job he has.

On one hand, it's a good thing that he's financially stable thanks to his profession and is able to buy everything Poppy needs. She doesn't have to worry about having enough money to go to university like the other kids. It's not common that a single parent has such a financial situation as Harry does. It's usually the single parents who have to work two or three jobs because they have to pay bills on their own.