always forever

How do you know if your in love?

Ayooo welcome back, hope you are all well :)
Anyway on with the story : 3

(Hello back again, wanna say mainly everyone started uni when they were 20 and now there 21, so I hope that clears some stuff up for anyone)

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Trigger warnings: swearing, mentions of sex, mentions of weed

Sakusa's POV

"I'm not jealous you dick", I said as I threw one of my hand sanitizer bottles iwaizumi's way.

Okay maybe I am a little jealous... no I'm definitely jealous.

"Kusa, just admit that your jealous of komori going to meet atsumu's parents before you", iwa says as he dodges the bottle that was thrown at him effortlessly, screw him and his reflexes.

" fine maybe I'm a little bit jealous, but he can invite who ever he wants, it's their home they can do what they want", I say taking in a deep breath, "even if it's my cousin". I say quietly so then them two don't hear me, but of course Ushi hears me.

"You shouldn't be jealous of komori going, he is miya's friend is he not?", ushi says as he plays around with the volleyball plushie in his hands.

"Yes he's atsumu's friend", I say pacing back and forth between iwa's and ushi's beds.

"Then why the hell are you so jealous for kusa, komori knows you like atsumu, so he wouldn't try anything", iwa says as he leans back on his bed, " anyways atsumu's not his type", I spin my head around to iwaizumi and look at him with a shocked expression.

"Atsumu's everyone's type, how could they not be, he's the full package, there incredibly smart, cutest thing known to man, caring and loving and-", I hear a cough interrupting my speech on how atsumu is just great in every way.

"Sakusa bro, listen to yourself, you love them, please just do us all a favour and ask them out", iwa says as he gets up and goes to the toilet. Does he think I don't think about doing it daily, ever since I first met atsumu on the opening day of university, all I've wanted to do was take them as mine and show them off to the world.

But I'm scared, I'm scared of rejection, I'm scared of losing the one thing that has been good to me, a constant beam of happiness for me these past few years.

I was never loved as a child, never knew my mum, dad was a homophobic asshole who drank himself into debt, I got out of there as soon as I turned 18. That's when I met Iwaizumi, we met at the bar I was working at when i was 19, he was the glass collector there and we just hit it off straight away. At first it was hard to trust him, as I've always been so cations around new people and my Germaphobia back then wasn't like it is now, but I warmed up to him in the end.

A year later after living with one another, we both applied for Ikite iru kibō university, both signed up for the physical education degree as I've always wanted to be a professional athlete and iwaizumi wants to be a athletic trainer.

That's when I saw him for the first time, just standing there the sun shining on their face and smiling away without a care in the world. I remember that day so clearly, he was standing with oikawa looking at the physical education stand, and it just felt like time stood still.

I remember iwaizumi looking at me wondering 'what the hell is up with him', I believe he decided to look where I was looking as well, as he then had the same expression on his face as I did, but with his attention directed at oikawa.

And from that day on we did everything in are power to be close to them, protecting them, caring for them and making sure they have a shoulder to cry on if they needed it. Even if it seemed like I didn't like atsu, I very much did, I just didn't know how to go about it all back then, as he is the only person I've ever been attracted to and probably the last person I will ever be attracted to.