Drugs [ɴᴀᴅᴇɴ]

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| Drugs | chapter one

| Had to give in, couldn't give up

I just want you, but I don't do drugs |

nessa's pov

i leaned against the desk as i felt a presence behind me. "you're at the studio again?" he says. i turn around, facing him.

my breathing becoming shallow, we were so close, this has been happening for a while. unusual tension between us. "yeah." i manage to say, he nods and sits down on the couch. i breathed out since we weren't close anymore. "i wanted to kind of escape from josh."

"why?" jaden responded quickly.

i shrug, "he's being a dick as usual." and what i mean by that is he's being controlling. he says what he wants and expects to do it everytime.

it's annoying and makes me lose every bit of feelings i ever had for him. at this point i'm just holding on to this relationship because we've been together for so long and i'm scared of change.

scared of being alone.

now this might sound wrong, but my actual happiness comes from jaden. we're friends who talks about the problems in our relationships and life in general, we had so much in common unlike josh and i. jaden and i weren't that close up until we made la di die. now we hang out at the studio almost everyday.

sometimes we couldn't tell our partners we were meeting each other cause they would get extremely jealous and loud about it.

"of course. what's new." jaden chuckles as he stood up, he walked closer to me. leaning in as i lean my head back. he grins looking down at my lips. he knew what he was doing and he has been doing this ever since we recorded and wrote la di die.

"ness..move im trying to see the lyrics you wrote. and you're right in front of the desk." jaden says as he smirks.

he did that on purpose, it was so obvious. i move out the way and he begins to read the lyrics i wrote for my new song counting crimes.
"i love this, honestly." jaden looks up at me.

"really?" my eyes lit up, jaden's opinions on my songs mean the world to me. he's been in the music industry longer than i have and knows what he's doing so it helps a lot knowing he likes it.

"..but..it's kind of obvious you're talking about josh." he laughs, i roll my eyes. walking to the desk to grab the notes.

"that's the point J, it's kind of like a cry for help." i say, grinning.

"yeah. but what about josh, what if he notices?" he raised his eyebrow at me.

"he's too oblivious to notice."  i shrug and jaden laughs.

the laugh does things to me i can't explain. but it's so bad, i couldn't be feeling shit towards my boyfriend's best friend.

"how about you start recording?" jaden says, sitting down on the desk looking straight at me.

"yeah sure." i grab only one of the notes and read off of it as jaden is helping me record.

"if we're counting crimes, nickels and dimes. we'd both have riches but you'd be the richest around." i sang, i then take off my headphones and smile at jaden. "how's that?"

"honestly great." he nods. i walk up to him and he walks closer. "this just might be your biggest song." jaden smiles.

"i highly doubt that." i pause, "but i do have a song on my notes that might be."

"can i see?" jaden ask, walking closer to me. my breathing became shallow once again. his blue eyes looking into my green eyes. it was hard to look away.

my eyes then glanced at his lips, seeing his lips form into a smirk. jaden notices but doesn't say anything. i tear my eyes from his lips and to my phone.

i search up the notes for the song that's coming after counting crimes and show it to him. jaden reads word for word before saying anything. he looks up at me smiling, "oh yeah, i agree. this is fully bashing joshy. this will be your biggest." jaden nods.

"exactly." i smile, i can feel jaden eyes still on me. why is there suddenly this feeling going around us. i don't know what it is but i know both of us feel it.

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PLAYLIST
[btw y'all don't have to play these songs while reading, this book was just inspired by these songs. mostly 'i don't do drugs']

- i don't do drugs by doja cat ft ariana grande
- pov by ariana grande
- needy by ariana grande
- you right by doja cat ft the weekend
- need to know by doja cat
- off the table by ariana grande ft the weekend