Drugs [ɴᴀᴅᴇɴ]

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| Drugs | chapter five

| Had to give in, couldn't give up

I just want you, but I don't do drugs |

nessa's pov

"done!" i cheered, jaden grinned as he laid back in the chair he was sitting in. "listen to the whole song now." i say, he nods. i play the song and the expression on his face was making me worried.

after the song was played he stood silent for a while, "it's awesome." jaden exclaimed, i breathed out in relief. "had you worried didn't i?"

"an actual fuck you." i roll my eyes at him as he chuckles.

"buutt, i kind of feel like a shitty friend, this whole song is basically bashing josh and i'm encouraging it when im his best friend." jaden sat up. i scott, i walk over to sit next to him.

"but you also know he's done shitty things to me." i say, jaden turns his head to face me. he nods, "plus, he was never a good friend to you."

jaden laughed, "you aren't wrong.."

we went silent, just looking at one another. once jaden's eyes glanced down at my lips he quickly removed himself from the couch, standing up. i grin a little, "i saw that, J."

jaden puts his head down and laughs, "i know you did." he turns to me, "your eyes were all on me."

"please, that's not the case." i roll my eyes, jaden walks towards me, placing both of his hands on each side of my waist. he pull me closer and out bodies were against each other.

his point was proven because my eyes were scanning all over his face and body. jaden smirks, stepping back from me. "i won."

"oh shut up, it's hard not to look all over you when you pull me THAT close." i scoffed, jaden burst into laughter as he dropped down on the couch.

"excuses excuses." he grinned, i rolled my eyes. i was now annoyed, not because of what he was saying. because he was right. i couldn't keep my eyes off of him. jaden noticed i was annoyed but he didn't know the reason. "i was just joking, ness." he apologized.

"it's fine." i say, i obviously couldn't tell him the reason i was annoyed so i just went along with his apology. i grab my keys and jacket, "i'm going to see mads, she needs me since you broke up with her."

"don't act like you weren't the one pushing me to break up with her." jaden rolls his eyes jokingly.

"a deals a deal." i say before going up to him and kissing his cheek. i walked out of the studio regretting what i just did. i don't know why i did it and what the fuck i was thinking.

jaden's pov

my heart jumped at the touch of nessa's lips on my cheek. she didn't say anything afterwards, she just left. leaving me in shock, and a blushing mess. but it's just attraction, i know it's not real feelings. it couldn't be.

all that i think about is mostly nessa now and that's not a good thing. she's my best friends ex. having an attraction to her is already bad enough but imagine me having feelings for nessa.

that's how i know i don't have feelings for her, because without a doubt i would choose josh over nessa any day.

but i had to get nessa off my mind, and the only way to do that was a random hook up.

nessa's pov

"mads." i wrapped my arms around her, pulling her in for a hug. "you're still crying even after days later?"

mads nodded, she sat down on the couch in her living room. "he just did it out of no where..i love him so much but i know he doesn't care because he left me crying." she teared up some more. i didn't know how to react at all.

"well maybe we should uh- go on a drive. or eat lots of ice cream and watch movies?" i suggested, mads nodded.

"second option." she wiped her tears.

we sat down, watching movies and eating ice cream. no matter how much i wanted to be there for mads and comfort her, i couldn't.
i was here physically, but mentally i'm not.

all i could think about was jaden and i fucking hate it. he's just my friend, or he should be. but i don't know if i'm true to my words because it's clear i sort of like him more than a friend.

even if i did, there's no way i could take those feelings into action. that would be fucked up to date my best friends boyfriend. i don't care about josh, i care about mads. she's already hurting so much and me getting with jaden would break her.