*Dan's POV*
"I don't care who does it but it's happening. I can't do this anymore Phil, it's unhealthy!"
He looked down to the ground the tears running down his cheeks the pleading light not once leaving his eyes.
"Dan, we can work it out! No matter what! We can work it out. No one has to leave!"
I shook my head at a rapid pace. I had to do this before he managed to convince me.
"Come on Dan. You don't have to go it's okay. We'll be okay."
He walked forward and tried to wrap his arms around me but I jumped back, away from the poison. I let the tears fall as I felt the dizziness take over, the numbness kind of putting me at a strange kind of peace.
"Not this time Phil. I can't ignore it and neither can you! I'm leaving. I will stay at Peej's or something but I can't stay in this toxic environment."
With that I grabbed my coat, packed a back and left the house only once looking back at him just to see him on the floor in tears of what I could only guess was regret or heartache possibly even heartbreak running down his face and on to his t-shirt making it crinkle up.
"Goodbye Phil."
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I looked up at Peej, tears rolling down my cheeks again. The knocking drilling right through me.
"That'll probably be him."
He looked at the clock on the wall and nodded absentmindedly.
"Yeah this is the time he came yesterday too."
I went to get up but he walked over grabbed my hand and made me stay sitting on the couch, making me stick to my word.
"No Dan. It's toxic you should stay away at least for a while."
"DAN PLEASE! I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE! PLEASE BABY... I need you to come back..."
It had been two weeks since I had left and he wouldn't give up. He sounded worse and worse everyday, I stopped answering the door after a few weeks after Peej had convinced me, although some days he has to remind me. I hung my head low and whispered more to myself than anyone else.
"I can't Phil"
I heard whistling coming closer and closer to the apartment not expecting it to suddenly stop.
"I- Phil ?"
My head shot up at the devilish voice noticing it as someone that's been trying to get Phil since he got out of Jail.
"Shit."
I got up and ran to the door but he wasn't there. No one was there. I felt like my stomach was in my feet, Peej kept walking up to me and stopping only to place a comforting but stern hand on my shoulder.
"Stay. Here."
He ran out of the door as fast as he could. I tried to stay, I really did but that didn't last for long maybe a minute at the most. I grabbed shoes and locked Peej's door before running. I knew Peej went down, so I went up. I ran up the stairs and up to the roof. As soon as I opened the door leading onto the roof I stumbled back and almost fell back down the stairs at the scene playing out in front of me. He was towering over Phil's body, knife in hand and a devilish smirk on his face. One hand reached down and wrapped around Phil's neck, that however, kicked me into action.
"I-I- GET THE FUCK OFF OF HIM!"
Niall turned around and grinned at me whilst Phil lay on the floor limp, tears rolling down his cheeks, lips parted, hands by his sides and looking the most unlively I had ever seen. I crumbled, my restraint slipping as I ran forward and grabbed the knife off of the floor that Niall had dropped when I shouted and advanced toward him.
"Wow calm down. Dan stop it. Dan you are scaring me! DAN! HE IS JUST UNCONSCIOUS I PROMISE I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING."
I kept moving forward, just as I reached him someone grabbed me and pulled me back twisting my wrist until I dropped the knife. I struggled against the restraint, not getting far but struggling in any ways.
"Daniel. Stop it! You can't kill him! He's not worth it, Phil's okay, he's breathing and slowly coming-to."
I went limp in his arms trying to calm down. I saw Niall jump forward and grab the knife to which I took the opportunity to kick him in the gut with as much power as I could.
"That's the least you deserve. Stay away from me Niall I'm warning you because next time you see me, I will be killing you."
I felt another hand grab my arm looking down and seeing Phil. Tears spilt out of my eyes immediately. As i forced myself to jerk away from the touch again.
Niall ran, down the stairs and probably out of the building merging in with the crowd again, lost to my sight.
"Peej I'm going back to the apartment, Phil is staying with you. Watch. Him."
My voice was strict as I ran down the stairs and out of the apartment complex. I had to go home, actual home. After about an hour of walking I reached the apartment and walked straight to my bedroom and collapsed on the bed. It smelt like him. He'd been sleeping in my bed, why ?
I found many questions troubling me for hours before I managed to settle down. You know that feeling you get when you're on a really high building and there's this voice in you head telling you to jump ? I had that earlier but the urge to take Niall down with me almost had me giving in. Had Peej not got there in time Niall wouldn't be alive right now.
The phone call I was dreading came four days later.
"Dan. He's gone."
I swear I almost dropped the phone.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE'S GONE ?!"
"I-I-I was o-only gone or a m-minute! I had to use the b-bathroom and I he-ard the door open and close. I quickly finished up and ran out and he was gone and so was his j-jacket."
I looked around the room rapidly trying to find my keys.
"I'm going to look for him."
"N-no stay there leave it an hour he could just be getting something, besides Niall wouldn't show up again so quickly I'm sure of it!"
After a small argument with him I decided to stay put, but only for an hour.
It had been four hours since then and I had been out of the house searching for more than half of that.
"Peej I can't find him! It's getting dark!"
"Go back to the apartment and get some sleep, I will keep looking."
I hung up and looked for another two hours before reluctantly walking solemnly back to the house and ringing up Peej.
"Any luck ?"
"I'm not stupid Dan, go home. I promise I will let you know if I find anything out."
There was silence then.
"Dan come on, he'll be okay. I promise he will be okay."
His voice was soft but it didn't make me feel any better. I took my keys out of my pocket and unlocked the door.
"What if he's not ?"
"I am."
I looked up and dropped the phone.
"PHILIP!"
I jumped back screeching loudly. He bent down and picked my phone up.
"I'm okay Peej, I couldn't stay cooped up anymore so I went out but I came to my senses about an hour again realising what I had done. I went by the house and you weren't there so I came here."
I went up to him and grabbed the phone saying a quick 'bye' before hanging it up and throwing it down.
"You complete arse Philip Michael Lester!"
I hit my hands on his chest with pressure behind it but not enough to bruise him.
"YOU SCARED THE LIFE OUT OF ME!"
He looked down.
"You- you were worried ?"
"OF COURSE I WAS WORRIED YOU ARSE!"
A little smile broke out on his face but it quickly dropped.
"I'm so sorry! I-I needed to get out Dan I could constantly be watched I needed to just walk around and I wasn't keeping track of time and you didn't want to be near me so I-I f-figured you wouldn't c-care-"
I instantly leapt into his arms and put my head in the crook of his neck.
"Phil you know I love you, I would never not care!"
"Y-yeah ?"
"Yeah."
He wrapped his arms around me and sighed.
"I'm sorry about everything dan, the fights, the cheating. It was all drunken mistakes and if you would even consider giving me one more chance then I swear I wouldn't make those mistakes again-"
"You can't promise never to argue with me phil, you aren't perfect and I get that honestly I who you are but the cheating and the hitting I dunno phil..."
"I understand if you don't want to or even can't but I swear if you jut give me one last chance, I won't do it again."
I looked down and thought for a second.
"Okay."
"Wait-really ?!"
I looked at him, he looked so sincere with everything he had said. Maybe this really shocked him enough to kick him into action. God, I hope so.
"One last chance Phil. One."
"I understand oh my god thank you Dan thank you so much! I love you so much, I honestly don't know what I would do without you I honestly don't."
"Not be able to make our joint Q&A's or like carry on our gaming Channel...."
He laughed slightly before holding me closer than he ever had before.
"They would be the last of my worries"
I'm not sure if I was meant to hear that, but I did and it scared me. I wrapped my arms around him and held him close. We kept each other grounded, we kept each other safe and no matter what lies ahead of us, we're not going in alone. We have each other and that's all that matters to me.
"I love you Dan."
"I love you too Phil."
*****
A/N GUESS WHO I AM GOING TO SEE IN OCTOBER ?!
I AM GOING TO SEE PHAN WITH THE BAE ( LondonStars21 ) AND I AM REALLY EXCITE UGHHHH
(Also real soon I'm bringing out two phanfics and talking stuff did hold!)
Hope you enjoyed this, baiiii.
-Satan 😈
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