Alyssa P.O.V
I bit my lips so glad everyone was out the house so they wouldn't catch me being a perv though could I really be called a perv if it was my own mate?
I'd heard him when I'd passed the bathroom and had curiously peeked only for my mouth to go dry and my panties wet. He stood gloriously naked in the shower his body covered in water droplets. I of course would have just taken in my fill of his body but the soft growls leaving him along with the groans held me in place. He was leaning forward resting his forehead on his forearm his other arm lowered as he grasped him self.
I'd never seen anything sexier than my mates hand slowly pulling his length causing his hips to jerk forward into his hand. Suddenly he picked up sped and when he was near completion his hand slapped against the wall as his back arched. "Alyssa!" He rasped making me gasp my muscles clenching.
I quickly closed the door and leaned against it panting. Suddenly tears press to my eyes.
Placing a hand over my mouth I muffle my sob. I quickly ran to my room and locked the door my heart pounding as tears slipped over my cheeks. I sank to my knees and cried relief and pain mingling in my chest.
In those few seconds before he called out my name I'd been terrified it wouldn't be my name he'd call. It'd be Carly's.
Finding out about her had ruined my life. I had nightmares every night of him and this faceless girl. They'd be making love or be on a romantic dinner. I'd even had a nightmare of them getting married. I'd woke up sobbing at that one.
Being near Luke was painful so I did as little of it as I could.
He'd explained to be again and again.
Carly was just a girl he'd used for sexual release. She was someone who was convenient and easy access to him. She meant nothing.
He always said that at the end. That she meant nothing.
Why had he called her his friend? He'd said he cared about her. He'd also promised me that he'd never see her again but for some reason it felt like a lie to me. Over 17 years...
How could I compete with her?
I sobbed into my hands unable to stop. I hadn't been able to stop crying since I learned about Carly my dad saying it had something to do with my 18th birthday coming up and my hormones raging.
A knock on my door startled me. I jumped away from it not moving to unlock it.
"Alyssa? Baby girl are you okay? Why are you crying?"
I sniffed and rubbed my cheeks. "Please just leave me alone."
There was a pause before he tried my handle only to find it locked.
"Please open the door."
I sat on the bed and buried my face in my hands. I knew he loved me. He told me every day. Suddenly the urge to be in his arms overwhelmed me. I unlocked to the door and allowed him to wrap his arms around me and lifted me up. He carried me to my bed and sat down placing me in his lap.
"You don't trust me anymore do you." He said quietly.
"You've basically been cheating on me since I was two. It-it would have been different if it was some random girl you didn't know the name of every year but--Luke you had a relationship with her!"
"I ended it with her when you were 16."
"W-What?" I whispered my stomach sinking.
"I don't want anymore secrets between us but I don't want to hurt you. I love you so much Alyssa, so fucking much." He grasped my face between his hands but I pulled away crossing my arms.
