Alicia P.O.V
"Where do you go during the day?" I asked lightly dragging my fingernails up and down my mates chest. I bit my lip worrying over it. For the past week he'd respected my wishes and left every morning before Alyssa got up. He was slowly making me love him a little bit every night.
He'd bring me special little gifts from past dates we'd had or food I'd been craving but hadn't told anyone about. He cuddled with me and watched movies or simply talk.
I hadn't forgiven him and I wasn't so sure I ever could but I loved him and with his promise to never hurt me again I could start to trust him again. Lately I started to wonder what he did during the day. The insecure part of me wondered if he was with a girl but I knew deep inside he wasn't. He promised me and he never broke his word.
"Well I wanted it to be a surprise but..."
I lifted my head up and looked at him curious. He gave me a shy look that made my heart clench. "I've uh been working on building a crib and bassinet for our...daughter. It's not much but I just thought it would be more special if I made it and we can use it again if we have more but we don't have to use it if you don't like it. I mean it probably doesn't even look that good I just thought—"
I stopped his ramblings by placing my hand over his mouth.
I smiled brightly at him and moved my hand to press my lips against his. "I'm sure it looks perfect. Thank you."
He smiled against my lips and gently started kissing me back. It was our first kiss since I left him and my body was flooded with warmth. We broke apart and I smiled snuggling against his chest. I was delighted that he was building something from our daughter. It meant he actually wanted this, he wanted our daughter and to be part of our life.
He hugged me tightly and ran a hand down my back till it settled on my bottom.
It was quiet for a while expect for the low murmer of the TV.
"I'm going to therapy."
I stilled my mind whirling. Sitting up I looked at his face trying to take in what he was saying. "What?" I asked.
Not meeting my eyes he looked away and cleared his throat. "After...after the hospital I left and went to visit my team and they rightfully kicked my ass." He let out a gruff laugh. "After they beat the shit out of me they sat me down and we talked. We talked all night and I decided that I needed to get help for things I've been ignoring for a while. I just wanted you to know that...I'm really trying to be the guy you deserve. I-I think I would would go insane if you left me again." He confessed.
I sat up pulling out of his hold.
Chewing on my lip I finally looked at him. "Are you going to mate with me when I go into heat?"
He stilled before he pulled me onto his lap. "I would mate with you right now if I could. I love you Kitten. I know how much of a giant asshole I am but when you kicked me out of that hospital room... that was the worst night of my life. The second you turn 18 you can bet I'll be on you though I doubt you'll go into heat as your already carrying my cub."
"I'm proud of you, you know for going to therapy. I want you so much to be here with me and her but I just can't take you hurting me anymore." Tears filled my eyes and I closed them as he gently wiped a fallen tear.
"I will never put you through what I put you through in the past. I know I keep apologizing but I'll never be able to say it enough times to express how sorry I really am. Your my soul mate and I treated you like—"
His voice cracked and he pressed his lips together his face streaked with pain and self loathing.
I twisted in his lap slipping my legs on either side of him before wrapping my arms around his neck. I pressed my face into his neck breathing him in. I didn't know what to tell him. I knew no matter what I said he'd still beat up on himself and honestly I wasn't so sure he didn't deserve it.
