paper hearts | vinnie hacker

10

  i had been on plenty of dates before but for some reason i was nervous. he made me nervous. not many guys had made me feel this way. only jackson, and chris, who was my crush from 2nd-7th grade. it was quite an obsession.

  i looked through my closet not knowing what to wear. there was no way i could just wear ripped jeans and a cropped sweater to a date. you're probably wondering why that was the only clothing items i listed, maybe because that's the only shit that's clean. i had massive laundry to do.

i realized i had a white dress stuffed way back behind my sweatshirts. would that be too formal? oh who cares, i was going on a date with vinnie hacker.

  i put in on and walked to my bathroom, looking in the body sized mirror. i looked pretty, not pretty enough for vinnie hacker, but pretty. i still couldn't believe he was interested in me especially when harper existed. i've always been jealous of her, she was insanely stunning. she could get any guy she wanted, could have any friends she wanted. i loved her with all my heart and couldn't be more

  i grabbed my keys and headed for the door. i knew we were going out to dinner at a cafe. he didn't make it clear if it was a fancy restaurant or a modern one. all i knew was i needed to go to sway, which was a pretty long drive, that was the only downside about the location of my apartment.

  as i got to sway, i texted vinnie letting him know i was here. i waited in my car, checking my makeup and hair. i saw him come out and motion for me to go to him. i grabbed my purse and got out, he was walking towards his car. i guess he was driving.

  he opened the door for me. i smiled as i got in. he was such a sweetheart. i honestly couldn't believe how i let myself catch feelings for someone. after jackson, this never seemed possible. i couldn't help but think about the fact that i was going home in 2 weeks. i frowned just thinking about it.

  "what's the face for?" vinnie asked, looking concerned.

  does he know? should i tell him? "nothing, just thinking about things." i lied.

  i could tell he didn't believe it. "baby cmon. tell me what's wrong."

  i sighed. "just the fact that i'm going home in 2 weeks, i thought maybe i'd fine a place for myself but i haven't."

  "live with me." i wanted him to be joking but i knew he was dead serious.

  "i can't do that vin. i've only known you for 2 weeks, sure they've been some fo the best days i've had in awhile but my mom will never go for it."

  "you're 18, your mom has no say." he tried to  argue.

  "that's where your wrong. my moms paying for my rental house and giving my money. i can't do this financially without her. besides, she's my best friend i can't just leave her in florida alone."

  the mood was ruined. the date was ruined. i just wanted to go back to my house and cry myself to sleep. i knew being with someone here was a bad idea. tears started to brim at my eyes, i put my sunglasses on that i brought with and looked at the window. 

  "this was a bad idea. please just take me home."

  he looked shocked but more hurt. "what do you mean it was a bad idea?"

  "i knew trying to be with someone while i was here was stupid. after jackson, love just seems unrealistic."

  he didn't say a word. he pulled into the nearest driveway to turn around. part of my wished he would've argued, fought for this date with me. i wanted him to show me he wanted to be with me, but i guess i wasn't worth fighting for.