paper hearts | vinnie hacker

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  i can't be in love with him. that's crazy. that's fucking crazy. i know all jackson wanted for me was to be happy, to find someone who loved me like he did. i honestly thought i found that with vinnie but now i'm not so sure. why would i back down from our date? i'm so stupid.

  i was pacing back and forth in my hotel room while my mom was out shopping. i'm too embarrassed to text him. i decided a cold shower would be good for me. i stripped out of my clothes and stepped in. the feeling of the chills running down my spine made me shiver. the then tears came. a whole shit ton of tears.

  i thought about everything i was putting my friends through by just getting up and leaving la. i couldn't just neglect everyone.

  "let's go shopping. you're in a runt and i'm sick of seeing you so sad." i looked over and noticed my mom was back. i sighed, frowning at her.

  "mom i really messed up."

  "sweetheart, just explain to him how you're feeling. if he's as perfect as you think he is, he'll understand."

  "why do you assume that i think he's perfect?"

  "that look in your eye when you talk about him, it's the same sparkle that you had with jackson."

  i smiled, tears running down my cheeks. i got up and hugged her, sobbing in her shoulder. i have to talk to him. maybe tomorrow. no logan today.

imessage

logan
hey vinnie
i'm really sorry about the other night
i was just scared
which isn't an excuse
but i want you to know i'm so sorry for what u did

vinnie🤍
don't even worry about it

logan
are you mad at me?

vinnie🤍
of course not
i understand
how are you?

logan
i'm okay
can we talk when i get back to la?

vinnie🤍
yeah just text me
gtg
read 7:35pm

could he be seeing someone else? no no not that quick. i was paranoid. i wanted him so bad. my world was falling apart.

"mom, would you want to move out to la?"

she gave me a confused look. "you can't be serious?"

"wait what? i thought you were okay with it." this was weird, she was on board last week.

"before? yes. but now i'm seeing someone here in new york. he asked me to move in."

"you have to be fucking joking." i laughed, she can't be serious. this was one huge joke.

"watch you're language logan. he's a business man, a very powerful ceo. this would be a good thing for you. a new start."

i waved my hands in the air. "i don't want a new start, not with some random dude."

"he isn't just some random dude, he's my fiancé." she shouted.

  speechless. there's no way.

  "you didn't even introduce me." tears streaming down my face, again i was crying.

  "i was planning on it while we were here. dinner is tonight."

  "i'm not going to a stupid fucking dinner with your boy toy." i screamed, storming out of the room.

  i knew she tho hung i was acting dramatic but i was hurt. i wanted her to be happy more than anything, but marriage was a big thing.

  somehow i ended up in central park, walking alone at night. which isn't the best idea.

  i miss vinnie. i miss him so bad.

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