I Will Always Love You

~A Week Later & Fist Fights~

~Jewel's POV~

It's been a week since I moved in with Spike and to say the least it's been awkward. We can't even be in the same room together, when one of us walks in, the other walks out. He and I used to be able to at least be in the same room together, but since that night we aren't the same. I'm no longer in school, I graduated and gave my speech during the early graduation ceremony. I'm really kinda bored without school, I wish that I was back, things were easier then, now everything is just awkward and not at all how I had thought my life after high school would be. I thought that Chibs and I would last and maybe someday actually have a life together, I never thought that he would cheat on me, only to have me cheat a few weeks later, as of right now, I'm looking for a job, sitting in the kitchen before Spike walked.

"Listen Jewel, I can't do this anymore, I love you and we should be together, please give me a chance, Jew..."

I cut him off placing my lips against his, when I pulled away I spoke.

"Your right, we should try to be together."

He smiled kissing me again, his hands traveled to the back of my thighs where he lifted me from the ground. He walked down the hall without removing his lips from mine, he laid me down on the bed before pulling away.

"I love you Jewel."

I shook my head.

"I'll eventually love you, but if I'm being honest I don't yet, I need some time alright?"

"Alright, I still love you though."

I laughed a little until I heard the front door open, I looked at Spike pushing him off and grabbing my gun, I slowly made my way out of the room. I turned the corner only to see Chibs standing there, I put the gun down and before I could speak his lips connected with mine, I pushed him away.

"Chibs, what the hell is fucking wrong with you?, you can't just come into someone's house uninvited and kiss someone."

He looked at me and it was then that I understood, he came here to get me back, I looked at him shaking my head.

"No, no, you don't get to show up and try to get me back after I finally gained enough strength to let you go. You don't get to come here and try to get me back after you criticized me for cheating when you did the same fucking thing, fuck you Chibs."

Just then Spike came in with a sad look on his face.

"Jewel, you still love him."

I turned to him shaking my head.

"No, you don't get to tell me that you love me, and then take away a sliver of hope that I have for myself. You don't get to tell me I love him when I'm slowly falling out of love with him and slowly falling in love with you. If you push me away now, you'll never get me back, once you lose me I'm gone, ask Chibs, he's already lost me..."

I turned to Chibs.

"You screwed up, you lied to me, made me believe that you loved me when you had cheated on me, and then made me feel like shit. I had a one night drunk stand with someone that at the time I didn't have any fucking feelings for while you were fucking around with your ex-wife so screw you."

He looked at me before nodding his head and letting me hear his voice.

"Your right I was an ass, but I can change Jewel, my life has been hell without you, please give me a chance to prove it to you."

"No, you fucked up, get out and leave me the hell alone."

"We're both cheaters, and you know it, so don't you dare put this all on me."