Surviving As His Queen | 18+ [Completed]

Chapter 1 - Samantha

"I have so much of you in my heart."

― John Keats, Bright Star: Love Letters and Poems of John Keats to Fanny Brawne

The most shocking thing that happened as soon as I returned was Madam Carla genuinely being concerned about me, more for the baby but still seeing her worry over me makes me happy. The butler also looks really happy.

It feels nice to be back, everything reminds me of him. Worry creeps in about how he is and what he would be doing right now. I hope he's coming back to me soon, the empty space in my heart keeps getting bigger with each passing day.

"How was the doctor appointment?" Madam Carla asks, I smile pulling myself off the thoughts of Jasper.

"The baby is growing well." I rub my belly, it's flat but my baby is in there -our baby.

Justin returns from work, he looks surprised to see me. "Sam. How are you?" He hands his things to the butler and walks to me.

"Great, how are you?" I ask, we haven't seen each other in weeks. Justin is taking over Jasper's work for the time being, he looks thinner and tired. "You look worn out."

He rubs his face, "I am. Being a stand in King is as tiring as being one. Brother Jasper please return soon." He groans sitting next to me.

"Dad is looking for him, they'll find him soon." I reassure him.

He sighs, "The ministers are creating a lot of problems, they don't see me anywhere near suitable to even be a stand in. They are pressuring to appoint Ezra Schwartz as the stand in."

"Don't worry, he'll need Dad's vote for that. He won't support him."

"Duke Samuel really is the only hope." He rests his head back closing his eyes.

Schwartz is the prime minister, a real pain in the ass. Just one glance and you can tell he wants to be the king, he's the person who forced Jasper into marrying me.

Forced. To. Marry. Me.

"I'll go rest." I go upstairs to our room, the familiar smell of the room freshener greets me. I walk into his closet and take a long sniff of his scent.

"I miss you so much Jasper." I say into his suit. The day he came back from the temple and told me I'm Cecilia and not Samantha, was he going to say he loved me?

Or was he going to talk about the contract?

Uneasiness settles in my chest making me feel like throwing up. "Jasper please come back, I need to tell you that I love you. I want to hear you say that you love me too, please come back to me."