Leaning Into BDSM

Chapter 3

The first book of the triology really scared me to be honest. I shall tell you why.

I felt like the author of this erotic novel had been raiding through my thoughts and dug out my secret fantasies of saying yes sir and the speech this so called Christian Grey used. Despite her story being deadly repetitive. I loved every sexual aspect of it. It was very moving yet weird because I had thought of it myself. Strange.

After reading about the 3rd chapter, I had zoomed off to text Alecia.

"Hey. Fifty shades is ok. When do they start doing it ? hehe x"

Then I would recieve..

"Read it and find out. Then we can talk about it."

I was fustrated that she didn't let me know, but so thankful for her introducing me to this juicy tale.

I learned so much from the book, with the help of google on what a flogger was. I mean, I know I watched porn but, having a name to the object helped alot more. The funniest thing I ever found out was what S & M meant. Ha! When I was about 14, my sister told me it was a risky sex position. But, in actual fact.. with the help of wikipedia, It standed for Sadist and Masochist. The Stephanie Meyer dirty version had a lack of description and so I didn't understand her definition of it, but I was overjoyed to know what Sadist and Masochist was.

I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders and a piece of a puzzle of me was fixed into place. I felt happier, but it only made me look more into this. A sadist could be somebody who enjoys inflicting pain on to another, and a masochist was some one who enjoys the infliction of pain.

At first I believed that I was this so called Masochist but actually there was more to it..