Leaning Into BDSM

Chapter 4

Im not sure if anyone can understand this feeling but.. have you ever read a book that has inspired you enough to write your own? I have.

I wrote several. I never managed to finish them or they weren't moving enough to be a page turner. In total I have probably typed out about 4-5 stories. They never left my word document and to be frank it only helped me more to finalise a perfect story. Something everyone could enjoy. Even vanilla lovers.. and no, I'm not talking about ice cream. They call it vanilla sex. Some one who enjoys plain old sex, which to me sounds pretty boring and a waste of time. But if that's what floats your boat.

I have stuck to my beliefs for about 7 years now. I believe you should please a man the best way possible, never talk back to them, let them be the one in control, and most importantly, they should not have to suffer from the mess you have caused. It bugs me when a girls tells a man off. No. It drives me insane. I want to scream at them. Tell them to knock it off. But, then I have to retain myself to know that every body is an individual.

I also was sacred to thought that a women should be everything a man could want. One who runs to a kitchen to fix up a sandwich. Or one who vacumn's crumbs from beneath he's feet. I can't tell you how much I would enjoy to be a housewife to my master. I would do some much for them.

Tattoo's in my mind were a no no. They look unappealing and dirty on a female's skin, but of course, master could have as many as he wanted. 

I had a large quantity of fantasies of having a master discipline me and force me into doing stuff. I personally feel that my master should have the bed whilst I slept on the floor. To me, this wasn't weird. It just would feel appropriate and respectful.

Funny thing is.. In real life I'm nothing like my obedent slave side. I'm bitchy, loud, annoying at times and extremly open. I do occasionally foget to close my mouth or feel sore regret from letting the secrets slip but, it never stopped me.