It was Saturday so Hitoshi was out with Denki, Eri was spending the day with Mirio and Shota had gone out for a quick errand leaving Hizashi alone at home with his thoughts and now he was sitting on his and Shota's shared bed crying.
"I'm home!" Shota shouts closing the door and kicking off his shoes. He looks around but doesn't see Hizashi anywhere, "Zashi?" He calls out but doesn't hear an answer and begins to get worried. He puts down his bag and looks around the house. Shota looks into their bedroom and sees Hizashi he rushes in, "Hizashi?! What happened?!"
Hizashi looks up seeing Shota and quickly rubs his eyes, "Its nothing, I'm fine. Did you get what you needed?"
"No. You're not fine. Whats wrong?" Shota says sternly. He sits next to Hizashi and grabs his hands, "Please Zashi, please tell me." Shota says his voice softening.
Hizashi looks up at Shota sadly and seeing the worried expression on his face he bursts into tears. Shota pulls him in closer letting him cry into his chest.
After a while Hizashi's crying lessens and he pulls away, "I'm sorry..." He says softly.
"You have nothing to be worry for Zashi, we all need to cry sometimes." Shota says gently rubbing Hizashi's back as an attempt to soothe him.
"But I'm supposed to be the happy one! I'm supposed to be the friend who's always smiling and laughing and making jokes!" Hizashi says pulling away, "I'm supposed to be the one who helps others to feel better when they feel like crap not the other way around, I'm supposed to be the one who keeps the group from being all depressed, the one who keeps the mood light, the one who makes sure we have some fun!" Shota looks up at him shocked and Hizashi gets up beginning to pace the room, "I'm supposed to be okay. I'm supposed to be happy, I have a family who loves me, I have great jobs, I have great friends, I have no reason to be sad or unhappy I have such a great life so why am I not happy?! What's wrong with me? There are people so much worse off then me so what right do I have to be unhappy?!" Hizashi says stopping to look over at Shota.
Shota's heart breaks at hearing how much Hizashi puts on himself, "Zashi.. no one expects you to be all that-"
"I do Shota! I expect me to be all that! Because if I'm not that person then... I don't know who I am.." Hizashi says looking down at Shota, "If I'm not the happy friend for you guys to trust and lean on then... what's the point?" He asks sounding broken.
Shota gets up and walks towards over to Hizashi, "Look at me." He says and Hizashi looks at him reluctantly.
"Hizashi, I could go on for hours about how great and strong you are but I won't, you don't have to be perfect, you can't be happy all the time, you work three stressful jobs and you still take on the extra weight of being the 'happy friend' you can't do that. Everyone gets sad, no one can be happy all the time. You don't have to always be so strong, sometimes you have to cry that's just how it is, so I want you to promise me that before you get to this point again, whenever you feel sad or anything you come and talk to me." Shota says looking him in the eye.
"But you have enough to deal with I-" Hizashi begins and looks away from Shota.
Shota grabs Hizashi's face and turn it so he looks at him again, "Promise me." He says sternly.
"But-"
"Promise me Hizashi." Shota says looking at him desperately, "It hurts me to see you like this, you've been putting so much pressure on yourself to be happy and I didn't even notice so please Zashi, promise me you'll tell me when you feel unhappy." Shota pleads tears beginning to form in the corners of his eyes.
" ....Okay.... I promise." He says hating to see Shota upset, "I'll tell you when I'm upset." He says wiping away Shota's tears with his thumbs before they could fall.
Shota smiles sadly and stands taller placing a soft kiss on Hizashi lips before pulling away, "Thank you." He says softly and Hizashi pulls him and rests his forehead on Shota's, "I'm sorry Sho.."
"I'm sorry too, I should've noticed." He says guiltily.
"Its not your fault I guess I'm just better than you at hiding it." He replies with a small smile.
"That's not something to be proud of."
"I know."
They stay like that for a while just quietly enjoying each other's presence before Hizashi breaks the silence, "So what'd you go do this morning?"
"Hmm? Oh I went to get some snacks for us to have a movie night tonight when the kids get home." Shota replies.
"That sounds like a great idea!" Hizashi says excitedly pulling his head away but keeping his arms around Shota.
"Well duh I came up with it." Shota says playfully.
"Hey!"
