Some people will always try to expose your flaws because they can't stand what is right about you. Keep in mind that the way people treat you is a statement of who their identity as a human being is. It's not a subjective statement about you, but discrimination.
Lying on her bed, Cami stared at the ceiling. Words hurt more. Her mother's words didn't hurt her as much as her granny did. Though, both the ladies uttered the same words, and both of them have made her feel useless and a huge burden on them.
Marina's words were harsh and broke something in her, her confidence, her trust, and Her. Even when she pathetically tried to block the voices, her subconscious completely mocked her. Everything she said was true. She was a replacement in Vincent's life. Her words made her conscious of her state. Her existence is mocking her.
Wiping the sweat from her forehead, she checked the AC. It was working perfectly. She washed her face without looking into the mirror. She didn't want to go to school and didn't want to stay here.
The thought again came across her mind. Marina, her mother, and her classmates' unspeakable words, where all of them somewhere stated that they wished she never existed. She sighed and then imagined them all of their easy lives, which they all wish to have without her. She imagined if she was never born, what their lives would be like. She was utterly determined that their lives would be brighter and lighter without her presence as a shadow. The conclusion was the fact that she shadowed their life.
And then the thought of her non-existence tempted her. The idea of her not being alive calmed her. Unknowingly, Marina opened a secret door of an eternal abyss of torment, which she couldn't close easily.
Sitting on the bed, she wrote the first suicide letter. She was writing down all her frustration and internal hurt in that letter. This action of expressing herself calmed her down. After that saddening moment, she checked the time and started dressing for school. She didn't have any interest in ng Marina and her mother. She just wanted to completely hide from them.
She combed her hair slowly and looked at herself in the mirror. Marina's words mocked her again. She couldn't look at her reflection in the mirror anymore, without thinking horrible about herself. She closed her eyes, breathed lightly, and when she reopened her eyes.
She decided to keep the last piece of a burnt photo of the background in her pocket and left for school.
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In the meantime, inside Marina's bedroom
Marina was pacing in her room. Robert and Isabella were sitting on the couch waiting for her to lash out at them.
"Mom, it just happened. I never ...." Isabella hardly tried to explain as she was hyperventilating.
Marina interrupted her, raising her finger to silence her daughter "Don't....just don't.".
All of them didn't sleep during the night. She looked outside of the window and deeply regretted how she verbally mistreated Cami. They were hurtful words. She still didn't know what really happened last night inside her mind but something in her words clicked a hidden dark side of hers and this darker side of hers was tricked by Cami's statements. Listening to Cami wishing her mother to be dead instead of that monster, infuriated her. What Cami said was utterly wrong, but that wasn't an excuse for anything she did. Unfortunately, what she did was also wrong. She thoroughly knew Cami's insecurities and she mocked her even for having insecurities. She turned to Isabella, "Your father must be very proud of you, today. Right?".
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The Shadow
General FictionWith dead eyes, Cami looked in front. Tears were sliding down from her eyes, her busted lip, her chopped hairs. Her bruised up face, all of this was screaming for help. Soon, she receives a smack on her face. Her body was shivering a lot. With trem...
