GRRRR BARK MEOW I GOT THIS OUT QUICKER THAN USUAL ILL TRY TO KEEP IT UP >:) BUT EVEN QUICKER NEXT TIME HOPEFULLY BC THIS WAS LATER THAN I WANTED TO
~ F I R S T P E R S O N D E K U ~
Anyway time to tell Suki!
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I get out my DSi, excited to talk to Suki about this. He'll be happy for me, I'm sure!
The second I grab the device, though, I notice my heart rate increases.
...And I feel butterflies in my stomach.
Don't tell me...
How have I gained feelings for a guy I haven't even seen the face of?
Is that even possible?
Err... I'm such an idiot. How could I ever let that happen?
Genuinely embarrassing for me. Just how lonely am I?
I stare at my opened DS, my finger hovering over the PictoChat icon.
I'm nervous. I'm super nervous.
Why?
Am I gonna ruin this relationship too?
Just like every person I love... Am I going to close off on this one too?
I don't wanna do that.
This is scary. Do I really feel this much anxiety about losing someone I met a few days ago? On PictoChat, too?
Why have I gotten so attached to this guy.
What's so different about him... and every other person I could've been attracted to?
I mean, what if he's really an ugly old man? That wouldn't be good.
...
...
I... Don't think I can talk to him today.
I'm sorry, Suki. Please wait a little longer.
I want to understand my feelings before I say hello again. Please believe I'll come back..
Just. Please don't forget about me, yeah?
I close the DS and plug it back in.
I sigh into my Cinnamoroll plushie, squeezing it under me in frustration.
I hate how I overthink things. I doubt anything would be different from before if I just talked to Suki.
The more I avoid him, the more I'll hurt myself. Not to mention I'd probably be making Suki himself upset too.
But maybe it's okay, just for tonight. I need to think about stuff.
The fact I like a guy isn't even all that troubling, I've had crushes on dudes and girls before and have already come to the conclusion that I'm not 100% straight.
It's just...
Why Suki?
Nothing special about our relationship.
Just two insomniacs randomly meeting and ending up sticking together.
I'm kinda mad at myself.
Yeah, I think that's exactly it.
I'm frustrated with myself because I know it's not like he'll be around forever. eventually we'll part.
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