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29|𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀

TW: eating disorders/body dysmorphia/mentions of sexual assault

Get ready for feels, and deep conversation.

Atelophobia: [A-tel-o-pho-bia]

The fear of imperfection. The fear of never being good enough.

-14 unread messages-

Mirko: Hey Akari, please text me back. I promise I will explain everything.

You deleted the notification and put your phone aside, running your fingers through your hair.

Ever since your confrontation with Aizawa, you haven't even responded to either Mirko or Aizawa. Maybe you were being childish, but that didn't matter right now.

You were nervous, as Aizawa was coming over to Katsukis house to talk about the new dorm system, and you really didn't want to see him, but you also knew that theres no avoiding it. You'd have to talk to him eventually.

You were reading in Katsukis room, headphones on your head as you nervously fidgeted and tried to focus, but to no avail as There was a knock on the door.

Katsuki stepped in slowly, "Akari." He called out.

You look up, taking off the headphones as he sits on the bed infront of you and takes your hands in his.

"Mr.Aizawa asked if you would talk with him for a second." He said cautiously.

You scoffed, "tell him to leave."

"Akari I know you dont want to, but you'll have to eventually. Besides, don't you want to ask about your mother?" He said trying to  reason with you.

You look at him as he gently cups your face, his eyes soft and reassuring.

~~~

You stepped into the room, and Aizawas eyes instantly fell on you. Relief flashed in his eyes as he suddenly frowned when he took in your appearance.

"You've lost weight."

"How observant. What do you want."

He sighs, "Im so sorry Akari. You know I would never-" 

"Save it. I don't need or want your apology." You interrupt, making his face fall, his expression conflicted and sad.

"Are you here to just apologise?" You ask, "let me explain," He said taking a step towards you.

"Don't you get it? You broke my trust, I've been living a lie my entire life, I've been neglecting and hating myself for a monster I'm supposed to call my father," you say, anger evident in your voice. "I lived through emotional and physical abuse every single day of my life because of a woman I used to know as my mother."

"You need to understand-"

"Don't interrupt me," you warn. "The only family figures that I've had were you and mirko. But little did I know, you two were just players in this fucked up game that my father had started, and you- didn't you feel any sympathy?" You ask in disbelief.

"You knew what I was going through, yet you sat on your ass while I blamed myself on a daily basis for something that was out of my control, and you did nothing to help me, because of a pathetic promise that you made with my father." You say bitterly as he watches you in silence.

"And for me to find out from a fucking villain." You laugh,

"I'm sorry."

"Is that the only word in your vocabulary?" You say sarcastically. "I want to know."