Kindly as I May, I Slay

Chapter Six: First Time

I can't even recognize the woman's face anymore. Her face was so slashed most of her skin fell off with no help from a pull.

"Ready for what?" My heart is throbbing and sinking right now in so many ways. My stomach feels like it fell to my feet.

"I mean you came to see me, right? There must be something you want?" He comes closer with the knife. He takes his hoodie and wipe some of the blood on it.

I cover my mouth wanting to puke. "You.. just killed someone.."

He rolls his eyes. "Thought we already established I was a murder. But your reaction is..." he pushes me back to the wall. "Much obliged." He smiles.

I lose my breath and my eyes narrow looking into his. Golden eyes, dark red hair, long tongue. Instincts of a killer. I pull my face closer to his and kiss him softly.

"Is that all you wanted me for?" He asks not too happy about it.

"Uhh.. n..not really." I answer looking away. "It's just.. I wanted to see you."

"Pffft-" he starts laughing hard. "Want to see me? That's hilarious, kid! Who in their right mind would wanna visit someone who tortured them and screwed them?!" He asks.

I put my head down. He's right, but.. it wasn't at all about the beating. I just... find him really attractive, and I wanna know about him, but I doubt he'd wanna tell me about himself in the slightest. I want him.

"Yeah but..." I don't care.

"Was it because of my pecker? God, I thought you would be smarter not to-" I grab his hoodie and pull him into me for another kiss. He chuckles putting his hand up my shirt. I feel his knife graze me slightly with it's edge.

I feel him cut me only slightly with his knife and I gulp. He sticks his tongue in my mouth keeping me from moaning.

"Mmm...nahaha." He chuckles cutting me again.

I wrap my arms around his neck pulling his body closer to mine.

It hurts. Him cutting me. He's even cutting me over the cuts he already made. But, I don't care what he does to me. Long as I'm with him. If he kills me, I only hope he carries my corpse with him.

"You're needy." He says stopping and looking at my face. His other hand pulls me in waist first as he places his knife up to my neck. He slowly cuts me on the side of my neck.

"Hnngh.." I wince from the pain.

He smirks viciously going close to my neck. I feel him lick the cut he made, and then softly suck on it for about 10 seconds.

"We should get out of here." He looks over at the inhumane face corpse of the woman.

"Okay." I nod glancing at the body.

He smiles. "This is the best part." He grabs my hand and takes off out of the alley.

I run holding his hand and following him. I'm really running away with him. Even though I haven't done anything to anyone, I feel guilty for not stopping him. This is exhilarating! A innocent guy and a murder.

Jackson and I run far away from everything, and go into a park settling behind a large tree beside some bushes.

I sit down catching my breath as Jackson sees if the coast is all clear.

"Were good." He sighs sitting down beside me. "I'm surprised you kept up."

"You have a lot more stamina than I thought." I say looking down at his bloody hoodie. "You don't wanna take that off?" I ask.

"I guess you're right." He says snatching it off and throwing it into the bushes. "It wasn't mine anyway. Some dude's I killed later today-"

"Jackson..."

"Huh?"

"...how many people have you killed?" I ask.

"No idea. Lost count after 5."

"You killed that many..?" My heart sinks again.

"Why? Do you wanna be killed by me?" He asks weirdly.

"Um..."

"You do?" He asks getting closer to me.

"N- Well, if we were ever stuck in a situation, I'd probably want you to."

He smirks pulling his face closer to mine, tilting his. "Really~ I'd enjoy that. I could just kill you right here, and be done with this." He grabs his knife out of his short pocket.

"You..you would?!" I jump.

"Yep." He smiles his canine teeth.

I sit my head back against the bark of the tree and look up at the sky. This moment. It feels strange, but it feels good. I feel like a runaway from home. Though it's only around 2am.

"I love you." I suddenly say breaking the silence.

He looks at me with an astonished face. "What?"

I blush hard. "I love you," I repeat.

"Mmm... so this is what happens when you take someone virginity away."

"How did you..."

"You never kissed anyone in your life before, have you?" He asks.

"No..." I look down.

"So, all of that was your first time, kinda sad, but thats what I get for screwing a virgin." He sighs.

"Just because I was a virgin doesn't mean-

"You're following me around like a little lost dog. Seems like it to me," he says.

"You don't like me back?" I ask.

He doesn't answer.

"So you do?"

He doesn't answer again. "Complicated."

Well, at least I know I have a chance with him. I wish I could make him mine now.

I get on my knees and turn towards him. "Let's have it." I demand.

"Uh..." he blinks twice. "In a park?"

He didn't say 'no'.

I nod impatiently.

He looks around. "Can I cut you?" He asks.

I nod impatiently.

"Alright, this is gonna be interesting."

I put myself on top of him and grab his face starting the process. I kiss him feeling his hand go down my sweats.

It's happening. I'm doing it with him again. I'm getting excited.