When We Were Young (Twilight)

Chapter 14

"Shit."

It is the second time I have lost my spot or forgot what I was doing in the last ten minutes. My mind keeps drifting back to this weekend, to everything that happened. I think of Rose telling me to grow up, to talk to Edward; but I do not know how.

I drop my head, hitting it on the desk.

"Dear." I hear Maggie say, and swivel my chair to see her brown eyes watching me under glasses, "don't hurt that pretty head of yours; are you okay?"

Maggie brought me back to life when I came back to Seattle. Her son, Garrett owns this studio. We met at a photography workshop one day. He asked to see my work and the rest was history. His wife, Kate displays her pictures here. A month after working; Kate asked me if I wanted to travel with her.

"You look like you maybe need to get lost for a while." She said one afternoon. She was right. I was unsure about how to do it; how I could afford it.

It takes a day to decide that I do want to travel and maybe not think of anything for a while. I decide to use the money Charlie left for me and then I do.

I leave Seattle with my heart in Spain.

We went to places like Portugal, Indonesia, Iceland, Greenland, Cape Town, Australia and Galapagos Island. We traveled for months and I forgot what it felt like to love what I do.

Garrett says my work will bring him in the big bucks, but I'm not sure.

I pick my head up and watch Maggie, "I don't know, Maggie." I say, watching her. She reminds me so much of Charlie.

"Is this about He Who Must Not Be Named?" She asks, she may be in her fifties, but she's such a huge Harry Potter fan.

I huff, "You, Gar and Emmett talk more like teenage girls than I ever did."

She laughs and shrugs, "I can't imagine going through what you've gone through and not be confused. Can I ask you something though?"

She doesn't wait for me to answer, "Would you change anything?"

I don't have to think about this one, "All of it."

"Okay, and would you say you need to talk to him? Get closure; that that is what you need?"

"Yes." I say as the door to the studio opens.

She nods and looks past me to the door that just opened. I turn my chair, to see who it is.

"Now seems like a good time to start." She says, softly.

Green eyes meet my brown ones.

—

"Hello?" I answer the phone, reaching over Edward.

"Bells, you need to get to the hospital." Em's voice is strained; it sends me into a straight panic.

"Emmett?" I jump up and causing Edward to jump up.

Em lets out a breath over the phone, and its defeat. At that moment, I just know.

"No. No. No." I drop the phone, shaking my head.

Edward watches me for a second and then picks up the phone.

"Em?" He says, and then he is quiet. "Oh god."

We get dressed in silence. The only sound is me, heavy breathing but I feel like I cannot breathe at all. I pace the porch waiting for Edward to come out. He tries to guide me to the car with a hand on the small of my back, but I pull away.

All this time, I should have been there with Charlie.

Not with Edward.

Not in Spain.

"He's gone." I say, sitting in the passenger seat.

"Bella." Edwards' voice is soft, something you use when you talk to a wild animal.

"Just get me to the hospital." To Charlie, even if he's not there.

A/n: next chapter, these two finally talk,we find out more about the end.