Wedding Sin

Chapter 25 (Walking away first)

Sebastian and I were sitting in a quiet setting on the outside of one of the restaurants in Napoli, he still haven't said anything to me from the car ride here till 20 minutes later sitting taking sips of my wine and I really was starting to think he was regretting this so I decided to break the silence

"This is a beautiful place" I said
"It is something" was all he said back to me and looked next to me he didn't meet my eyes once
"Your grandparents is really sweet" I said again but he took a deep breath
"They are" he said again and I was starting to get angry did he bring me here so I had a conversation with myself or did he not have something to say?
"Why did you ask me to dinner tonight if you aren't going to speak?" I asked and then his eyes found mine
"I'm just trying to get used to this, of you" he said and I frowned
"It's not as if we haven't been spending the last two months together, so I thought you were already used to me?" I said
"I am trying to be nice Devon don't make me regret this decision" he said and I huffed
"You are the one who asked me here Sebastian" I pointed out and before he could say anything your waiter came to place our food in front of us

"This looks really good" I said looking at my plate filled with pasta and sauce, I looked up at him and his eyes were on his plate
"What is that?" I asked disgusted at his plate
"Never seen pork belly with zucchini?" he asked me and I scrunched up my face
"It just looks weird" I said taking a bite of my own food savouring the delicious taste of the pasta a moan escaped my lips
"Don't do that" he said I opened my eyes to look at him
"What" I asked him dumb folded

"Never mind eat" he said and I did just that
"So tell me something about you?" I asked him and he looked up from his plate
"You already know more of me through my family Devon so I don't think there is something to tell" he said which was half true but I wanted to know the real him, there was one question that kept eating at my mind and I really wanted to know
"What happened to you?" at this question he looked at me
"So eager to know the first thing that popped inside that brain of yours?" he asked almost wanting to laugh
"No I just really want to know Sebastian as I told you before I am not scared of you I just want to know" I replied before I knew what I said, he looked angry but I didn't expect him to answer
"I cannot give you all the answers you want" he replied and I understood what he meant
"I understand but I just want to know what happened between you and your father?" I said asked
"It really isn't something I like to tell, but when I was 10 I had to kill my first person and my father made me do but I had to take over the business and it was the only way" he said not looking at me
"God that must have been hard" I whispered
"You have no idea but it made me the man I am today" he replied looking at me we finished our dinner, I wanted to make the mood lighter
"You told me that there was a few things that needed to be discussed" I asked him and he looked at me
"Not here" he told me and he asked for the cheque once he paid we walked out into the streets after what felt like forever he broke the silence
"I am holding on by a fucking thread, I don't know what to do with you" he said angrily while holding his fingers away from each other to emphasise how much he was holding on but he was so blunt
"What do you mean Sebastian you keep on talking in riddles" I was angry now

"I am talking about you Devon; you come into my fucking life turning it upside down with your kindness and words, I want to kill you yet I want to protect you at the same time, you are fucking around with my head with your mouth and fucking body and I can't get your damn fucking kiss out of my head" he yelled and it took me by surprise I stood there standing watching him, did he just say what I thought he did because I also felt that way about his kisses
"I'm sorry for doing that to you Sebastian but you know it wasn't my intention" I heard myself saying and he looked at me
"That is what I mean, you drive me insane" he whispered but seeing him like this now actually broke my heart because he looked different, he looked weak
"You told me that I should stay out of your way while you stayed out of mine but yet here we're standing in each other's way" I replied he couldn't blame me for this
"Don't give me that" he said to me and I frowned
"What" I asked
"You and I both know that was not going to happen" he told me pointing in between me and him
"What do you want me to do then Sebastian?" I asked not sure where this is going
"I don't fucking know but all I know is a need to get you-"